ScarletSpeedster
11-11-15, 16:10
Hello,
I am a twenty year old girl who suffers from mild-severe health anxiety depending on the moment.
I am really struggling today, more so than any other this week, as I have two upcoming appointments at the hospital and doctors that I am driving myself crazy about.
Tomorrow I am having and echocardiogram at the hopsital to check my heart as a heart murmur was found by my doctor. This alone is fuelling my anixety to insane amounts. But then I also have another appointment next week at the doctors regarding my left breast - which felt firmer and bigger than the right - so they can check it after my period to see if it is hormonal. This appointment is scaring me the most, as some may have read, I have a severe fear of breast cancer, even though no lumps were found a week and a half ago, and the nurse said besides the feel, they look fine. But even though I am nearing the end of this current period, it still feels harder and bigger, although not so bad as it was. It is like the muscle is a lot bigger on one side of my left breast - whether that's linked to my work of a lot of hard chopping of food, I don't know. But it still terrifies me - the waiting, what they might say, all of it.
These two appointments are becoming a bit much for me, and right now, I feel very down and frightened, even though I have little evidence or reason to be so scared.
Any relatable stories or advice much appreciated :unsure:
I am a twenty year old girl who suffers from mild-severe health anxiety depending on the moment.
I am really struggling today, more so than any other this week, as I have two upcoming appointments at the hospital and doctors that I am driving myself crazy about.
Tomorrow I am having and echocardiogram at the hopsital to check my heart as a heart murmur was found by my doctor. This alone is fuelling my anixety to insane amounts. But then I also have another appointment next week at the doctors regarding my left breast - which felt firmer and bigger than the right - so they can check it after my period to see if it is hormonal. This appointment is scaring me the most, as some may have read, I have a severe fear of breast cancer, even though no lumps were found a week and a half ago, and the nurse said besides the feel, they look fine. But even though I am nearing the end of this current period, it still feels harder and bigger, although not so bad as it was. It is like the muscle is a lot bigger on one side of my left breast - whether that's linked to my work of a lot of hard chopping of food, I don't know. But it still terrifies me - the waiting, what they might say, all of it.
These two appointments are becoming a bit much for me, and right now, I feel very down and frightened, even though I have little evidence or reason to be so scared.
Any relatable stories or advice much appreciated :unsure: