buggy999
18-09-04, 10:33
Hello all,
I hope everyone who's reads this post is ok and feeling a lot better than I am.
Been suffering from anxiety / panic / depression on and off for a year now. It seems to happen in cycles. I'll have a panic attack usually due to worrying about things and stress in general, this happens when I'm in bed (it's happened 3 times now). The next day when I wake up I'll feel anxious and this anxious feeling stays with me 24 - 7 for months, causing me to get depressed. It slowly fazes out until I start to feel normal and my happy self again and then when I'm 99% better it happens all over again.
Over the past 2 months I felt like I had fully recovered and felt happier than I have done in years! I felt like I had finally got my life back after a year of being up and down like a yo-yo. Then on Wednesday I had a very bad day at work and other personal factors were playing on my mind making me feel bad about myself (I'm a very insecure person even though everyone I tell this too is amazed because I hide it so well) and when I went to bed my mind was racing and I ended up starting to feel a bit like a panic attack was on the way so I had a beta-blocker (for the first time in about 5 months) and it calmed me down but I still didn't sleep well. I woke up racked with anxiety and it feels like I've been knocked back to square one. While I've been getting better I've experienced bad days out of the blue but this feels different, it feels like I'm at the beginning of the cycle again. :( It's now Saturday and I can still feel that nervousness... It's the kind of feeling you get when you waiting for something bad to happen... like waiting for someone to attack you... but it's constantly there 24 - 7 and when it's really bad it can get my mind racing and make me start to feel panicky. [V]
I can live with this as I've been through it before and I know I'm not going to go mad (like I thought the first time I had it):) and each time this cycle happens it feels a little bit easier to cope with (only a little though it's still a nightmare) because I've been here before. But it's just so draining and leaves me feeling desperately unhappy. I want to see the back of it forever... but I'm starting to wonder whether this is something that I'm just going to have to accept that I'll be fighting throughout my whole life.
I've been to the doctors on a number of occasions. The first time I started suffering from panic / anxiety / depression I was put on tranquilizers as I was in a bad way as I'd never experienced this before and it really scared me as I'm used to being able to control myself, my emotions and my mind very well so this really shook me up. The doctors then wanted to put me on anti-depressants but I'm not having it. I feel as though they aren't for me. I'd rather try and deal with this illness head on without trying to mask it.
I'm lucky in that I have a number of very supportive people, friends, girlfriend and family etc that I have been able to talk too about all this when it starts to feel like it's too much to cope with on my own.
So, I'm getting really fed up with this anxiety etc and in my opinion the NHS have proved with flying colours that they are useless at trying to treat any mental illness... errrr is anxiety / depression / panic a mental illness? Anyway I'm through with the NHS and I'm considering taking Cognitive Behavioural Therapy privately. Is there anyone who knows whether this actually works? Does anyone know roughly how much I can expect to pay per session and how many sessions it would take?
I read on the internet EVERYWHERE that panic / anxiety / depression is a very easily treated condition... is it? And if so can it be cured forever so it doesn't just keep popping it's ugly head up [}:)] every time life gets stressful and unpleasant?
Thanks for anyone who replies to this post... your all saints! :)
:)
I hope everyone who's reads this post is ok and feeling a lot better than I am.
Been suffering from anxiety / panic / depression on and off for a year now. It seems to happen in cycles. I'll have a panic attack usually due to worrying about things and stress in general, this happens when I'm in bed (it's happened 3 times now). The next day when I wake up I'll feel anxious and this anxious feeling stays with me 24 - 7 for months, causing me to get depressed. It slowly fazes out until I start to feel normal and my happy self again and then when I'm 99% better it happens all over again.
Over the past 2 months I felt like I had fully recovered and felt happier than I have done in years! I felt like I had finally got my life back after a year of being up and down like a yo-yo. Then on Wednesday I had a very bad day at work and other personal factors were playing on my mind making me feel bad about myself (I'm a very insecure person even though everyone I tell this too is amazed because I hide it so well) and when I went to bed my mind was racing and I ended up starting to feel a bit like a panic attack was on the way so I had a beta-blocker (for the first time in about 5 months) and it calmed me down but I still didn't sleep well. I woke up racked with anxiety and it feels like I've been knocked back to square one. While I've been getting better I've experienced bad days out of the blue but this feels different, it feels like I'm at the beginning of the cycle again. :( It's now Saturday and I can still feel that nervousness... It's the kind of feeling you get when you waiting for something bad to happen... like waiting for someone to attack you... but it's constantly there 24 - 7 and when it's really bad it can get my mind racing and make me start to feel panicky. [V]
I can live with this as I've been through it before and I know I'm not going to go mad (like I thought the first time I had it):) and each time this cycle happens it feels a little bit easier to cope with (only a little though it's still a nightmare) because I've been here before. But it's just so draining and leaves me feeling desperately unhappy. I want to see the back of it forever... but I'm starting to wonder whether this is something that I'm just going to have to accept that I'll be fighting throughout my whole life.
I've been to the doctors on a number of occasions. The first time I started suffering from panic / anxiety / depression I was put on tranquilizers as I was in a bad way as I'd never experienced this before and it really scared me as I'm used to being able to control myself, my emotions and my mind very well so this really shook me up. The doctors then wanted to put me on anti-depressants but I'm not having it. I feel as though they aren't for me. I'd rather try and deal with this illness head on without trying to mask it.
I'm lucky in that I have a number of very supportive people, friends, girlfriend and family etc that I have been able to talk too about all this when it starts to feel like it's too much to cope with on my own.
So, I'm getting really fed up with this anxiety etc and in my opinion the NHS have proved with flying colours that they are useless at trying to treat any mental illness... errrr is anxiety / depression / panic a mental illness? Anyway I'm through with the NHS and I'm considering taking Cognitive Behavioural Therapy privately. Is there anyone who knows whether this actually works? Does anyone know roughly how much I can expect to pay per session and how many sessions it would take?
I read on the internet EVERYWHERE that panic / anxiety / depression is a very easily treated condition... is it? And if so can it be cured forever so it doesn't just keep popping it's ugly head up [}:)] every time life gets stressful and unpleasant?
Thanks for anyone who replies to this post... your all saints! :)
:)