robin321
16-11-15, 13:30
I was on here recently for my bowel obsessions. I do actually have crohns, but suddenly got fixated on it. Anyway - the Dr said he thinks all is good, and I am mainly over that. This lasted about 5 weeks.
Anyway, during this time I lost weight. I lost close to 4 lbs. I have fluctuated by a few lbs a week before - but am usually go back to my equilibrium. This was 178.6. It is now 174.6. I have now become fearful of this. I weight myself, and get anxious. I am counting my calories, trying to pack them on and gain back the weight. I am avoiding exercise because I don't want to burn the calories. Has anyone gone though this?
Here is my list of fears, and my logical explanations:
Fear:
Losing weight because I am sick - crohns or something else
Scared my weight will keep falling, making me more anxious
I will go to see Dr, have to do tests
Will be anxious during tests - will get bad diagnosis
will fall apart
will get sick and die (extreme I know but I am following through)
Rational and challenges:
I reduced my calories significantly in the past month as I was scared of my bowel movements. I ate a lot less, and snacked less.
I was also depressed and ate less
I go to the gym and do intense exercise 3 times a week, and I was walking and running 3 times a week. The walking was new - 10,000 steps a day was my goal - and this is when weight loss started.
Even if I am sick, which I probably am not - I have no other symptoms so it is likely something simple.
By stopping the exercise I am robbing myself of something I like to do, plus something that helps to stop my anxiety.
By eating unhealthy or too much, I am feeding (literally) the anxiety as I let it control me.
Anyway, during this time I lost weight. I lost close to 4 lbs. I have fluctuated by a few lbs a week before - but am usually go back to my equilibrium. This was 178.6. It is now 174.6. I have now become fearful of this. I weight myself, and get anxious. I am counting my calories, trying to pack them on and gain back the weight. I am avoiding exercise because I don't want to burn the calories. Has anyone gone though this?
Here is my list of fears, and my logical explanations:
Fear:
Losing weight because I am sick - crohns or something else
Scared my weight will keep falling, making me more anxious
I will go to see Dr, have to do tests
Will be anxious during tests - will get bad diagnosis
will fall apart
will get sick and die (extreme I know but I am following through)
Rational and challenges:
I reduced my calories significantly in the past month as I was scared of my bowel movements. I ate a lot less, and snacked less.
I was also depressed and ate less
I go to the gym and do intense exercise 3 times a week, and I was walking and running 3 times a week. The walking was new - 10,000 steps a day was my goal - and this is when weight loss started.
Even if I am sick, which I probably am not - I have no other symptoms so it is likely something simple.
By stopping the exercise I am robbing myself of something I like to do, plus something that helps to stop my anxiety.
By eating unhealthy or too much, I am feeding (literally) the anxiety as I let it control me.