princessita
17-11-15, 20:33
Hello everyone,
I am 24 years old and struggling with health anxiety and panic attacks. Most of the time i feel like something is really wrong with my health and that doctors still didn't find out what's going on. I have never been properly diagnosed with Panic Disorder but i was checking my health in two different countries and in both they mentioned that it is just stress and anxiety.
i believe that my first panic attack was 3 years ago. I was always a very strong person and even though i was going through some personal issues at that time i was keeping my head high and stayed positive. However, once (what surprises me during a very happy day) i had what they call panic attack, when my heart started beating really fast and i thought i was going to pass out. I went to the hospital and was released home since the cardiogram didn't show anything. The doctor was pretty rude and suspected that I took some drugs or something (even though i don't drink alcohol or smoke AT ALL). She then told me that maybe i should check my thyroid but for now she can't help me. After this incident, i didn't have any panic attacks for a while. However sometimes, i would remember that horrible incident when i was rushed to the hospital and wonder whether something might be wrong with me. For the next year, i ve been doing quite well. Then, all of the sudden, i started feeling more and more anxious about my health. I didn't know what was health anxiety or panic attack yet. I would suddenly feel bad and go to the doctor or hospital where they asked me for my symptoms and then would say that it is probably stress related. I never believed the doctors, since in the country where i am currently living, Holland, your general practicioner always talk about stress and never give you a chance to see a specialist. Therefore, i started to worry about my health more and more, google every single symptom and wonder what's wrong. Once my GP told me to go on a psychotherapy. During my first session,i felt like i am going insane and my doctor is just crazy to send me here(i though that at my young age, i am completely ok mentally and probably there is something else going on). I never went there again. I was quite busy with my studies, so i tried to put my focus on studying and doing something i like. I was thinking I am doing better but no... i was still afraid of every ache or pain, always thinking about the worst. It got really bad in the last 6 months. I could hardly concentrate on finishing my studies (gladly, i managed to obtain my diploma). And then, i was free to start a new stage of my life, people asked my what am gonna do next but i couldnt make any plans because i thought something is really wrong with my health. Then, i decided to get checked in another country. They found some minor things that were not previously diagnosed by other doctors, like some vitamine and mineral deficiency (probably because i was trying to eat healthy limiting lots of products i used to eat before), some ''ladies problems", but in general they said i have to look more deeply at what bothers me since all of my other complains can be stress related. I felt like i was in a crossroads... doctors were mentioning stress again... i had to accept that maybe something is really wrong with my MENTAL health. I went to holistic psychotherapist, he gave me some good tips but the sessions were just too expensive and i didn't feel like it was helping me dramatically.
So here I go again, the last few weeks were crazy. I feel like i have more symptoms than ever. Again thinking, which specialists i didnt see yet and maybe I have to check something else to find a problem. I feel so tired emotionally... i feel my heart beat all over my body, i get strange nerve spasms/twitches all over my body, or some stange aches or needle like pains in different parts. It makes me extremely anxious. But i already wasted too much money on the doctors and i guess people around me think that i am just paranoid and crazy....
Sorry for such a long message and excuse my mistakes. I hope to find some soul mates in this forum.:huh:
I am 24 years old and struggling with health anxiety and panic attacks. Most of the time i feel like something is really wrong with my health and that doctors still didn't find out what's going on. I have never been properly diagnosed with Panic Disorder but i was checking my health in two different countries and in both they mentioned that it is just stress and anxiety.
i believe that my first panic attack was 3 years ago. I was always a very strong person and even though i was going through some personal issues at that time i was keeping my head high and stayed positive. However, once (what surprises me during a very happy day) i had what they call panic attack, when my heart started beating really fast and i thought i was going to pass out. I went to the hospital and was released home since the cardiogram didn't show anything. The doctor was pretty rude and suspected that I took some drugs or something (even though i don't drink alcohol or smoke AT ALL). She then told me that maybe i should check my thyroid but for now she can't help me. After this incident, i didn't have any panic attacks for a while. However sometimes, i would remember that horrible incident when i was rushed to the hospital and wonder whether something might be wrong with me. For the next year, i ve been doing quite well. Then, all of the sudden, i started feeling more and more anxious about my health. I didn't know what was health anxiety or panic attack yet. I would suddenly feel bad and go to the doctor or hospital where they asked me for my symptoms and then would say that it is probably stress related. I never believed the doctors, since in the country where i am currently living, Holland, your general practicioner always talk about stress and never give you a chance to see a specialist. Therefore, i started to worry about my health more and more, google every single symptom and wonder what's wrong. Once my GP told me to go on a psychotherapy. During my first session,i felt like i am going insane and my doctor is just crazy to send me here(i though that at my young age, i am completely ok mentally and probably there is something else going on). I never went there again. I was quite busy with my studies, so i tried to put my focus on studying and doing something i like. I was thinking I am doing better but no... i was still afraid of every ache or pain, always thinking about the worst. It got really bad in the last 6 months. I could hardly concentrate on finishing my studies (gladly, i managed to obtain my diploma). And then, i was free to start a new stage of my life, people asked my what am gonna do next but i couldnt make any plans because i thought something is really wrong with my health. Then, i decided to get checked in another country. They found some minor things that were not previously diagnosed by other doctors, like some vitamine and mineral deficiency (probably because i was trying to eat healthy limiting lots of products i used to eat before), some ''ladies problems", but in general they said i have to look more deeply at what bothers me since all of my other complains can be stress related. I felt like i was in a crossroads... doctors were mentioning stress again... i had to accept that maybe something is really wrong with my MENTAL health. I went to holistic psychotherapist, he gave me some good tips but the sessions were just too expensive and i didn't feel like it was helping me dramatically.
So here I go again, the last few weeks were crazy. I feel like i have more symptoms than ever. Again thinking, which specialists i didnt see yet and maybe I have to check something else to find a problem. I feel so tired emotionally... i feel my heart beat all over my body, i get strange nerve spasms/twitches all over my body, or some stange aches or needle like pains in different parts. It makes me extremely anxious. But i already wasted too much money on the doctors and i guess people around me think that i am just paranoid and crazy....
Sorry for such a long message and excuse my mistakes. I hope to find some soul mates in this forum.:huh: