teaandtoast
18-11-15, 20:48
I apologise, I know there's a similar thread posted recently but I really don't know what to do.
I've always had fears of things like terrorism, end of the world predictions, war, illnesses, bad weather, etc. The events of the past week or so have absolutely petrified me. Not only is there the obvious Paris attacks, but then Gatwick Airport was evacuated due to a gun being found, a football match in Germany was cancelled because the security services had intelligence that it was going to be bombed, the raids in Paris this morning, etc. And the fact that IS have said that London, Washington DC and Rome are next. They also said that this is only the beginning.
I am constantly in a state of panic. Something very bad is going to happen, I have an intuitive feeling. I'm going to be caught up in an attack. I'm going to London just before Christmas and god, I don't know how to cope. It's not an option to cancel because I'm going with people who are very much of the view that we have to carry on as normal. I know that something is going to happen then and we're going to be caught up in it, we're going to be travelling on trains, the tube, going to large scale public events, etc... All things which will be targets.
I feel like I'm losing my mind, I am suicidal because I am of the view that I would rather die by my own hand rather than by somebody else's. I cannot focus on anything else. I don't understand how people can carry on as normal when I am constantly panicked. I am so so so so scared and I don't see how it can get any better.
I am seeing both my therapist and psychiatrist tomorrow and I don't know what to tell them - I am always dismissed and never taken seriously but I feel like I'm genuinely losing it and I'm scared I'm going to do something stupid :(
I've always had fears of things like terrorism, end of the world predictions, war, illnesses, bad weather, etc. The events of the past week or so have absolutely petrified me. Not only is there the obvious Paris attacks, but then Gatwick Airport was evacuated due to a gun being found, a football match in Germany was cancelled because the security services had intelligence that it was going to be bombed, the raids in Paris this morning, etc. And the fact that IS have said that London, Washington DC and Rome are next. They also said that this is only the beginning.
I am constantly in a state of panic. Something very bad is going to happen, I have an intuitive feeling. I'm going to be caught up in an attack. I'm going to London just before Christmas and god, I don't know how to cope. It's not an option to cancel because I'm going with people who are very much of the view that we have to carry on as normal. I know that something is going to happen then and we're going to be caught up in it, we're going to be travelling on trains, the tube, going to large scale public events, etc... All things which will be targets.
I feel like I'm losing my mind, I am suicidal because I am of the view that I would rather die by my own hand rather than by somebody else's. I cannot focus on anything else. I don't understand how people can carry on as normal when I am constantly panicked. I am so so so so scared and I don't see how it can get any better.
I am seeing both my therapist and psychiatrist tomorrow and I don't know what to tell them - I am always dismissed and never taken seriously but I feel like I'm genuinely losing it and I'm scared I'm going to do something stupid :(