Kilimanjaro
21-11-15, 21:42
Hi,
I am new here and just need some support. My husband has had enough of me and I just cannot burden him anymore...
My H/A comes and goes but every time it comes back I always think this is it. This time I am right.. It always related to cancer of some sort.. This time lymphoma as have enlarged lymph nodes in my groin and am itchy and have lots of bruises. I spoke to the Doc a month or so ago and she said she was not worried but before this she did feel the largest lump and said 'are you sure this hasn't grown'.. I said I didn't know... I keep going over what she asked that if she wasn't thinking it could be something sinister.. I can't stop checking now and I feel like I am going mad.. I have two young children and cannot stop fearing I'll die and leave them without a mother. My baby son is only 10 months old...
I am torn because I so desperately want to go back to Doc and get her to re-check but part of me is terrified it will be something and another part not wanting yet another doctor in my practice to think I am bonkers and a time waster... I feel so anxious I am going to explode..
I am new here and just need some support. My husband has had enough of me and I just cannot burden him anymore...
My H/A comes and goes but every time it comes back I always think this is it. This time I am right.. It always related to cancer of some sort.. This time lymphoma as have enlarged lymph nodes in my groin and am itchy and have lots of bruises. I spoke to the Doc a month or so ago and she said she was not worried but before this she did feel the largest lump and said 'are you sure this hasn't grown'.. I said I didn't know... I keep going over what she asked that if she wasn't thinking it could be something sinister.. I can't stop checking now and I feel like I am going mad.. I have two young children and cannot stop fearing I'll die and leave them without a mother. My baby son is only 10 months old...
I am torn because I so desperately want to go back to Doc and get her to re-check but part of me is terrified it will be something and another part not wanting yet another doctor in my practice to think I am bonkers and a time waster... I feel so anxious I am going to explode..