Liamjay
30-11-15, 00:25
Hi all.
This is my first time I've posted or truth be told had any anxiety of any sort.
I'm a 31yr old male and a bit overweight. I'm normally heathy, of course I've had twinges and aches, colds, flu's etc but noting that's ever caused me concern.......Until last week.
I was laid at home on the couch and kept getting like an electric shock pain in my chest which would shoot up to my head. It was quiet unnerving. I chose to bare with it for a day as it was happening perhaps once a hour..... Then I decided after work to take myself to the local 24hr doctors. They did an ecg and and said that everything was OK, but as the 24 hour doctors was next door to the a+e they transferred me there as a matter of caution.
I had another ecg and the doctor said that everything was fine and it was possibly a muscle strain or a nerve firing or something along them lines (such a relief!)
Since then I just can't stop thinking if they have missed something. My chest now feels fine (it felt bruised where the previous pain was for a few days but that's it.)
The more I think about it the more I google, the more I google the more I think I have bowel or stomach cancer and the chest twinges were from that.
Bowel:- as I passed blood a few months ago (but bright red and I've got piles so it was put down to that)
Stomach:- because I have always had acid reflux for as long as I can remember.
Now I have no appetite at all (it's making me feel sick to eat) my stomach feels like it's tense and cramping and althogh not diarrhoea I'm going to the toilet more then normal, the only way I can describe how my stomach feels it is how it feels after doing sit ups, and these symptoms are adding to the anxiety and making me think it could be something major.
I feel panicky, and I'm thinking about death constantly.
I have a 3 year old son and I'm breaking down thinking I'm not going to watch him grow up etc.
I've always been terrified of anything to do with death and get panicky thinking about it, but now it's at a whole new level.
I just want it all to stop.
I'm going to see a GP (doctor) tomorrow but feel embarrassed, and to top it off I get panicky about going to the doctors in case they give me bad news! Plus to add to this I'm extremely needled phobic. Ive only had blood taken once and that was a massive coaching session to get me to lay down etc.
I have spoke to my wife (who is a midwife) and she has said its in my head but to go to the doctors for assurance.
What a massive part of this fear is I think is her uncle died of stomach cancer and bowl cancer and within a month of being diagnosed he had passed away.
I have no family history of any cancer, and as much as this is a good thing it just makes me think "it's time for a first"
I really can't stop thinking about it and have this horrible sticky feeling of doom.
Any advice would be great.
Cheers
This is my first time I've posted or truth be told had any anxiety of any sort.
I'm a 31yr old male and a bit overweight. I'm normally heathy, of course I've had twinges and aches, colds, flu's etc but noting that's ever caused me concern.......Until last week.
I was laid at home on the couch and kept getting like an electric shock pain in my chest which would shoot up to my head. It was quiet unnerving. I chose to bare with it for a day as it was happening perhaps once a hour..... Then I decided after work to take myself to the local 24hr doctors. They did an ecg and and said that everything was OK, but as the 24 hour doctors was next door to the a+e they transferred me there as a matter of caution.
I had another ecg and the doctor said that everything was fine and it was possibly a muscle strain or a nerve firing or something along them lines (such a relief!)
Since then I just can't stop thinking if they have missed something. My chest now feels fine (it felt bruised where the previous pain was for a few days but that's it.)
The more I think about it the more I google, the more I google the more I think I have bowel or stomach cancer and the chest twinges were from that.
Bowel:- as I passed blood a few months ago (but bright red and I've got piles so it was put down to that)
Stomach:- because I have always had acid reflux for as long as I can remember.
Now I have no appetite at all (it's making me feel sick to eat) my stomach feels like it's tense and cramping and althogh not diarrhoea I'm going to the toilet more then normal, the only way I can describe how my stomach feels it is how it feels after doing sit ups, and these symptoms are adding to the anxiety and making me think it could be something major.
I feel panicky, and I'm thinking about death constantly.
I have a 3 year old son and I'm breaking down thinking I'm not going to watch him grow up etc.
I've always been terrified of anything to do with death and get panicky thinking about it, but now it's at a whole new level.
I just want it all to stop.
I'm going to see a GP (doctor) tomorrow but feel embarrassed, and to top it off I get panicky about going to the doctors in case they give me bad news! Plus to add to this I'm extremely needled phobic. Ive only had blood taken once and that was a massive coaching session to get me to lay down etc.
I have spoke to my wife (who is a midwife) and she has said its in my head but to go to the doctors for assurance.
What a massive part of this fear is I think is her uncle died of stomach cancer and bowl cancer and within a month of being diagnosed he had passed away.
I have no family history of any cancer, and as much as this is a good thing it just makes me think "it's time for a first"
I really can't stop thinking about it and have this horrible sticky feeling of doom.
Any advice would be great.
Cheers