tan235
06-12-15, 00:09
I'm 40 - I've had anxiety since I was 24 - I know when it started and it's never gotten better.
I've gone to numerous psychologists, I've taken numerous herbal remedies, never any anti depressants, I've meditated, eaten so healthy it's boring, tried to be positive - trusted my instincts with my health when I really thought something was wrong only to be told time and time again that I'm healthy.
Yet here I am, a 40 year old single woman with a gorgeous 3 year old daughter and I still worry.
I'm happy enough - but my mental state of anguish takes over.
I worry about being healthy but really I'm worried I'm unhealthy.
I focus on every little thing, my heart beat, if it's too slow, too fast, I worry about my memory - that I'll get dementia, that I have a brain tumor, that something is going on in my body and I can't control it, I worry that I"m not vigilant enough and that the Dr's miss something.
I wake up with anxiety, I have body tremors, I go through days of hyperventilating yet if you met me you'd think I was calm and lovely. ; )
I have the best advice for people like me and I don't want to continue into my older years with this anxiety.
I want to embrace the fact that i am happy but here's my piece de resistance - I worry that I stop worrying I'll miss something!!
Heck I worry I might poison myself when I make dinner.
I need help but no one can help me but myself... has anyone over-come this beast that I refuse to own yet I've built the cage for???
x we must be able to get over this and love and get on with your lives.....
I've gone to numerous psychologists, I've taken numerous herbal remedies, never any anti depressants, I've meditated, eaten so healthy it's boring, tried to be positive - trusted my instincts with my health when I really thought something was wrong only to be told time and time again that I'm healthy.
Yet here I am, a 40 year old single woman with a gorgeous 3 year old daughter and I still worry.
I'm happy enough - but my mental state of anguish takes over.
I worry about being healthy but really I'm worried I'm unhealthy.
I focus on every little thing, my heart beat, if it's too slow, too fast, I worry about my memory - that I'll get dementia, that I have a brain tumor, that something is going on in my body and I can't control it, I worry that I"m not vigilant enough and that the Dr's miss something.
I wake up with anxiety, I have body tremors, I go through days of hyperventilating yet if you met me you'd think I was calm and lovely. ; )
I have the best advice for people like me and I don't want to continue into my older years with this anxiety.
I want to embrace the fact that i am happy but here's my piece de resistance - I worry that I stop worrying I'll miss something!!
Heck I worry I might poison myself when I make dinner.
I need help but no one can help me but myself... has anyone over-come this beast that I refuse to own yet I've built the cage for???
x we must be able to get over this and love and get on with your lives.....