Fixxxer123
09-12-15, 19:48
Ive suffered from depression and anxiety for years now, the anxiety hadnt been a problem for a while and i learnt to get by with depression, i had a great job and i was approaching the end of my contract, 2 weeks away from signing a new one. One day i went in, it was the start of my shift, was asked to go into the office, i hadnt done anything wrong, it was a discussion about an incident with an another employee, before i got to the office, my heart was already pounding which i didnt understand because i wasnt nervous. When i sat down i couldnt even get a word out properly, 2 of my managers where asking me if was ok because i was sweating and went pale, my body went so weak, i had no control i walked out and left.
i went the doctors, as soon as i was seen i started having another panic attack before i said a word, i was given citalopram which i had been on in the past and was booked for CBT which i had to wait 2 months before i could be seen.
To cut it short, i didnt go back to work because of the fear of having another panic attack, stopped taking citalopram after a month, personally i prefare not to take medication for anxiety or depression. this was months ago and things havent improved, i cancelled my CBT, i couldnt do it and i dont know why, i feel like i cant communicate with anybody without having an attack and i need to to start working again because my debts all building up. its becoming a struggle just leaving my house, i feel defenceless.
friends and family know about it all but its like ive been left to fix this on my own, i guess im writing this to see if anybody has experianced anything similiar, should anxiety attacks happen when you believe you arent anxious?
i went the doctors, as soon as i was seen i started having another panic attack before i said a word, i was given citalopram which i had been on in the past and was booked for CBT which i had to wait 2 months before i could be seen.
To cut it short, i didnt go back to work because of the fear of having another panic attack, stopped taking citalopram after a month, personally i prefare not to take medication for anxiety or depression. this was months ago and things havent improved, i cancelled my CBT, i couldnt do it and i dont know why, i feel like i cant communicate with anybody without having an attack and i need to to start working again because my debts all building up. its becoming a struggle just leaving my house, i feel defenceless.
friends and family know about it all but its like ive been left to fix this on my own, i guess im writing this to see if anybody has experianced anything similiar, should anxiety attacks happen when you believe you arent anxious?