xxminniexx
13-12-15, 17:28
I have posted a few times on here about various things, I have fairly severe anxiety about health etc and since I was a child have had some components of OCD... I have always been an emotional person but after having my little girl have felt emotionally cut off. We had a traumatic labour and birth both of us and I had no partner etc. I love her and I know I do but for a few months after found it very hard to enjoy her..... I am starting to learn this more after almost two years now which is nice. But in lots of ways I still feel very emotionally cut off from people. I have had a few dysfunctional relationships and find it extremely hard to trust men, which leaves me in a relationship with someone I dont trust and cant emotionally connect with fully. I sometimes find it hard to find genuine sympathy for people which I know sounds awful and its not who I am at all. I forget things a lot, I can not cry any more. I have cried once in the past two years. I just feel like I dont feel any emotions fully they are all dulled. I dont know if my anxiety has caused this because it has been sky high for two years straight since becoming a parent. Is there any way I can reverse this and go back to my normal self? I am sick of it honestly. I want to feel present and in the moment again