Westielove
14-12-15, 09:31
Hi all
So I feel like I am sounding like a broken record here but my anxiety riddled head just will not let me accept and relax!
About 5 months ago I faced my 4 year long phobia of HIV and I went for the test (4 years post exposure). The test came back negative. I was temporarily relieved but now my HA has come back with avengence and here's why.
I have been discovering things over the last few months that, with cruel coincidence, happen to be symptoms of HIV. So despite the negative results in black and white, my mind is still being tortured with this fear.
In the last 6 months I have discovered swollen lymph nodes in my armpits - I went to the gynae and an ultrasound and they concluded that it is silicone that has gotten into my lymph nodes from my previous breast implants which had ruptured. So makes sense but at the time of the rupture I was told it was intracapsular.
I have had some dry skin on my forehead and itchy scalp for the last year which never I never thought much of until I recently read about sebhorric dermatitis. Yes ok it is a common skin condition which can be brought on by stress etc but also, I read, with HIV!!
Now the latest thing is I think I may have a yeast infection as I have had some itching down below the last couple of days and as I have never had one before, I read what I should do, and it said it is common in people with HIV!! 😩
I have also been getting cramps quite frequently in my toes when I put them in certain positions or maybe after exercise. And that is also a symptom!!
I want to accept my results and use them as proof I can live without fear of this but all these coincidental things keep happening to me!!
I guess my mind keeps doubting the test and wondering whether there is a chance it could be wrong or not accurate.
Can someone please tell me if HIV tests can ever be wrong? My exposure was extremely low risk and was over 4 years ago. I got the year finally this year after years of me tottering myself. But now I feel like everything I am getting is pointing towards it and so I am doubting the results 😢😓
Please help xx
So I feel like I am sounding like a broken record here but my anxiety riddled head just will not let me accept and relax!
About 5 months ago I faced my 4 year long phobia of HIV and I went for the test (4 years post exposure). The test came back negative. I was temporarily relieved but now my HA has come back with avengence and here's why.
I have been discovering things over the last few months that, with cruel coincidence, happen to be symptoms of HIV. So despite the negative results in black and white, my mind is still being tortured with this fear.
In the last 6 months I have discovered swollen lymph nodes in my armpits - I went to the gynae and an ultrasound and they concluded that it is silicone that has gotten into my lymph nodes from my previous breast implants which had ruptured. So makes sense but at the time of the rupture I was told it was intracapsular.
I have had some dry skin on my forehead and itchy scalp for the last year which never I never thought much of until I recently read about sebhorric dermatitis. Yes ok it is a common skin condition which can be brought on by stress etc but also, I read, with HIV!!
Now the latest thing is I think I may have a yeast infection as I have had some itching down below the last couple of days and as I have never had one before, I read what I should do, and it said it is common in people with HIV!! 😩
I have also been getting cramps quite frequently in my toes when I put them in certain positions or maybe after exercise. And that is also a symptom!!
I want to accept my results and use them as proof I can live without fear of this but all these coincidental things keep happening to me!!
I guess my mind keeps doubting the test and wondering whether there is a chance it could be wrong or not accurate.
Can someone please tell me if HIV tests can ever be wrong? My exposure was extremely low risk and was over 4 years ago. I got the year finally this year after years of me tottering myself. But now I feel like everything I am getting is pointing towards it and so I am doubting the results 😢😓
Please help xx