char123
21-12-15, 12:50
Hi,
Ive been wondering whether I actually have OCD or if its a 'side effect' of the anxiety.I get these sort of like intrusive thoughts- because I don't like them and wish that I could just forget about them- of really random, strange and immoral things which I can dwell on for days. I think that this is the worst part of the the anxiety/ OCD because it makes me think I'm a horrible person or a psycho sometimes. I'll list afew of the ones now that have been bothering me recently
Sweating- I've noticed that I've been sweating more and think that I have an illness
Being gay- I've tried accepting that it's okay to be gay but now it's coming back as a fear ando if I see a woman on TV or somewhere I think if I am attracted to her. It's so annoying and dehibilitating sometimes
Being attracted to my brother/ brother-in-law- I don't know when this started but I wish I could just forget about it because it always springs to my mind when I see then and makes me feel like a horrible person.
Trying new things- this isn't so much a thought but I get so anxious at trying new things because of a fear of the unknown I guess.
Whether I have OCD- I try to analyse my odd thoughts and see what it fits because I feel like the only person who dwells on these types of thoughts.
I'm sorry this became really long but I really want to know what you think. I hide most of these thoughts from my family because I don't feel like I could confide in them because I'm scared they'd judge me. As well I don't know if these are compulsions or not but for example on a weekday when I have school, I'll check that I have bus money in my pocket about 10 times before I go.
Thanks for reading! By the way I'm a 16 year old female and I really want to live a normal life again. I'd be thankful for any reply :)
Ive been wondering whether I actually have OCD or if its a 'side effect' of the anxiety.I get these sort of like intrusive thoughts- because I don't like them and wish that I could just forget about them- of really random, strange and immoral things which I can dwell on for days. I think that this is the worst part of the the anxiety/ OCD because it makes me think I'm a horrible person or a psycho sometimes. I'll list afew of the ones now that have been bothering me recently
Sweating- I've noticed that I've been sweating more and think that I have an illness
Being gay- I've tried accepting that it's okay to be gay but now it's coming back as a fear ando if I see a woman on TV or somewhere I think if I am attracted to her. It's so annoying and dehibilitating sometimes
Being attracted to my brother/ brother-in-law- I don't know when this started but I wish I could just forget about it because it always springs to my mind when I see then and makes me feel like a horrible person.
Trying new things- this isn't so much a thought but I get so anxious at trying new things because of a fear of the unknown I guess.
Whether I have OCD- I try to analyse my odd thoughts and see what it fits because I feel like the only person who dwells on these types of thoughts.
I'm sorry this became really long but I really want to know what you think. I hide most of these thoughts from my family because I don't feel like I could confide in them because I'm scared they'd judge me. As well I don't know if these are compulsions or not but for example on a weekday when I have school, I'll check that I have bus money in my pocket about 10 times before I go.
Thanks for reading! By the way I'm a 16 year old female and I really want to live a normal life again. I'd be thankful for any reply :)