katyfitz
24-12-15, 21:53
Hi guys,
so I really want to feel excited that it's Christmas Eve and instead I'm thinking will I be here tomorrow and are these my last few days. If I become happy I'm ignoring I'm seriously ill and if I'm unhappy I'm so sad. I have this back ache but also I have tightness in my stomach and have the urge to want to go toilet and can't. I'm driving myself insane and can't get excited for tomorrow. My breasts are now sore and I'm not due on period for another 14 days why are they sore already? Unless my cycle is messed up and I'm due before and something's wrong with my cervix? I literally am living in fear x
so I really want to feel excited that it's Christmas Eve and instead I'm thinking will I be here tomorrow and are these my last few days. If I become happy I'm ignoring I'm seriously ill and if I'm unhappy I'm so sad. I have this back ache but also I have tightness in my stomach and have the urge to want to go toilet and can't. I'm driving myself insane and can't get excited for tomorrow. My breasts are now sore and I'm not due on period for another 14 days why are they sore already? Unless my cycle is messed up and I'm due before and something's wrong with my cervix? I literally am living in fear x