laurenmk
27-12-15, 02:59
I'm back on meds after 4 months off. Hallelujah. HA got the worst it's been in my life. Only on day six though. . .today was one thing after another and I was riding the wave, but the thing that finally set me off was running into a distant cousin at the grocery store. I gave her a hug, as one does, and after talking for a few minutes looked down and saw white flecks on my jacket where I had hugged her. I looked at her more closely and noticed it was all over her, too. Trying to make light of it (but wanting to know what the heck it was) I asked something like, "What'd you do to yourself there?" while winking and trying to brush it off myself. She replied that she didn't know and started brushing herself off, too, but then commented, "Probably from the dog."
Now, it would have been bad enough feeling 'contaminated'. But I have a real aversion to animals because I'm terrified of ticks, parasites, etc. Her dad is a vet (barn animals) so thankfully he didn't have me hug him as he "smelled like the barn." He had all sorts of stuff on his jacket and I might be checking myself into the looney bin right now if I had hugged him.
My mind is racing and right now fixated on perhaps her having treated the dog with flea powder which is super toxic and I then would have gotten on my bare skin! I just want some peace. I haven't had a full day of peace in months.
Now, it would have been bad enough feeling 'contaminated'. But I have a real aversion to animals because I'm terrified of ticks, parasites, etc. Her dad is a vet (barn animals) so thankfully he didn't have me hug him as he "smelled like the barn." He had all sorts of stuff on his jacket and I might be checking myself into the looney bin right now if I had hugged him.
My mind is racing and right now fixated on perhaps her having treated the dog with flea powder which is super toxic and I then would have gotten on my bare skin! I just want some peace. I haven't had a full day of peace in months.