Munki
03-01-16, 17:40
So last year hubby and I went snowboarding and this year he's adamant he's going again. That's totally fine. However, despite him offering to pay for me, I'd never go away without plenty of money and without a proper job currently it's putting pressure on me (I'm coming to the end of a degree in 4 months so only working part time).
So I've told hubby that I can't go away again and come back broke and trying to tread water again for a couple of months. It knocks me back royally. Plus my mindset just isn't there for going away right now.
He's upset but agreed to going with a friend but now I feel really depressed. Depressed that I'm 40 and can't keep up with my husbands lifestyle, depressed that I've had to turn something down and can't keep up with his friends, depressed that I'm 40 and broke.
I feel a real let down at the moment and that he should be with someone else who can do this sort of stuff. I'm also worried that he'll go away and realise he's happier as we never spend time apart and this will be the first time apart from one night apart for a hen/stag do.
I'm totally overreacting but need some words of reassurance right now. I know I'm working to a future. I'm a professional actress and will soon (all being well) be the owner of a Psychology degree.
I feel so sad at the moment that I can't stop crying :-(
So I've told hubby that I can't go away again and come back broke and trying to tread water again for a couple of months. It knocks me back royally. Plus my mindset just isn't there for going away right now.
He's upset but agreed to going with a friend but now I feel really depressed. Depressed that I'm 40 and can't keep up with my husbands lifestyle, depressed that I've had to turn something down and can't keep up with his friends, depressed that I'm 40 and broke.
I feel a real let down at the moment and that he should be with someone else who can do this sort of stuff. I'm also worried that he'll go away and realise he's happier as we never spend time apart and this will be the first time apart from one night apart for a hen/stag do.
I'm totally overreacting but need some words of reassurance right now. I know I'm working to a future. I'm a professional actress and will soon (all being well) be the owner of a Psychology degree.
I feel so sad at the moment that I can't stop crying :-(