elik
04-01-16, 13:53
Hi,
I left the priory a week tomorrow and am feeling much better in general. However, there is something stopping me from going forward; the fear of what will be in my future. I know I can't predict that, but after having a few episodes of this I slmewhat cannot live through another and I can't let go of this fear because it's luke I constantly need to reevaluate my situation. I'm also petrified of this feeling of derealization and that I'll lose grip of reality completely or just will not know how I'm feeling is 'normal'. I feel like in my episodes I'm in a complete psychosis and I get paralysed by fear of myself and what's happening to me and am I psychotic because some of my thoughts are so powerful and ridiculous... It traumatises me completely
I left the priory a week tomorrow and am feeling much better in general. However, there is something stopping me from going forward; the fear of what will be in my future. I know I can't predict that, but after having a few episodes of this I slmewhat cannot live through another and I can't let go of this fear because it's luke I constantly need to reevaluate my situation. I'm also petrified of this feeling of derealization and that I'll lose grip of reality completely or just will not know how I'm feeling is 'normal'. I feel like in my episodes I'm in a complete psychosis and I get paralysed by fear of myself and what's happening to me and am I psychotic because some of my thoughts are so powerful and ridiculous... It traumatises me completely