still here and still breathing...

[imfineokay]

My last few posts have been on my bowel cancer fear. Honestly I think this is the worst fear out of all of the ones that came before it because of how long and how many panics I got myself into. I've been worrying about this since September last year and I am wondering, would I be dead or very sick by now? It's Been a good 4 months since this fear began, roughly how long would it take for me to feel it/die? I know no one here as a doctor or whatever but maybe someone would know? This is the only thing I worry about anymore and it's so ooo hard to let go of this one.

[angrry]

hi...I am going through the same fear and have been since July...I wonder the same..wouldn't I be much sicker by now if I had colon cancer.....I am currently waiting to hear when I will go for a colonoscopy...my doctor doesn't seem to be too worried..I have seen him several times about this fear and my symptoms...honestly I just don't know what to do any more. What does your doctor say about your symptoms and fear?

[Fishmanpa]

Cancer is an uncontrolled growth of abnormal cells. It doesn't come and go nor does it stop once it starts.

Based on that "fact" what is the answer?

Positive thoughts

[artist12]

I wonder the same thing. I have been having these same thoughts with worries of throat or neck cancer. It's been 6 months here and I can't say that things have gotten worse. But the fact that it hasn't gone AWAY is still keeping me in a vicious HA cycle.

Positive thoughts to you.

[imfineokay]

My doctor thinks nothing is wrong and it's just what I'm eating since none of the tests proved otherwise. I am literally waiting month by month and it sucks. And throat cancer? that was one of my fears too! I'm over it now but I know exactly what u mean, if it's been 6 months then I think that's a good sign. It's been nearly a year since the sorry started with my first fears which was mouth/throat cancer and I wish I could just go back and stop the thing that started this from happening, but hey that's in the past and I've wasted nearly a year that I will never get back. That vicious circle is a real pain in the brain.

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And I'm only wondering IF I had it would I be ill by now. (This might be Too much info and disgusting) Whenever I go to the toilet I sometimes think I see blood, like the other day I saw a black part on a stool and I still have no idea if it was blood or not, I did eat cabbage the other day so I'm still trying to tell myself it was that but I think I will never know and I will be left wondering for ages and I want enough time to pass where I can say that nothing is wrong, but the problem is, I have no idea how long I gotta wait... :unsure: