char123
19-01-16, 21:56
Hi,
Ive felt awful these past few days and haven't been able to stop thinking. I'm pretty sure I have pure O but I haven't been to the doctors about it so the doubt that my obsessive thoughts aren't caused by this and could be actually true is what is bothering me at the moment. So I've worried that I could be gay before, that I could be a paedophile and the recurring , most debilitating one is that I'm attracted to my brother. The thought just doesn't seem to leave my mind and I feel like I'm having a 'groinal response' whenever he is near me! I've googled so many times to try and reassure me that it's not true but I just can't find peace and let the thought pass. I feel like I'm always trying to convince my self that I'm not and I just have so much doubt that I don't feel like I'll ever be able to let this pass.
I 've read that if the thought creates anxiety then it's not true but other than the constant thinking about it, I don't think I react with anxiety naturally so it makes me question the thought more. I feel like I can't be sure about anything because my head is a mess and feels so full. I wish I could just say 'no I know that I am not attracted to my brother' and hopefully then the thoughts would stop. I really really really hope that I'm not attracted to my own brother!! This is by far the worst obsessive thought I've had as my brother is the trigger.
I understand that no one is a medical professional here but I'd like to hear what you think. Am I attracted to my brother?? How can I accept these thoughts to make them go? I'm started to do some meditation before bed so if anyone has any good music/videos to clear minds please could you send me a link. Thanks for reading!!
Ive felt awful these past few days and haven't been able to stop thinking. I'm pretty sure I have pure O but I haven't been to the doctors about it so the doubt that my obsessive thoughts aren't caused by this and could be actually true is what is bothering me at the moment. So I've worried that I could be gay before, that I could be a paedophile and the recurring , most debilitating one is that I'm attracted to my brother. The thought just doesn't seem to leave my mind and I feel like I'm having a 'groinal response' whenever he is near me! I've googled so many times to try and reassure me that it's not true but I just can't find peace and let the thought pass. I feel like I'm always trying to convince my self that I'm not and I just have so much doubt that I don't feel like I'll ever be able to let this pass.
I 've read that if the thought creates anxiety then it's not true but other than the constant thinking about it, I don't think I react with anxiety naturally so it makes me question the thought more. I feel like I can't be sure about anything because my head is a mess and feels so full. I wish I could just say 'no I know that I am not attracted to my brother' and hopefully then the thoughts would stop. I really really really hope that I'm not attracted to my own brother!! This is by far the worst obsessive thought I've had as my brother is the trigger.
I understand that no one is a medical professional here but I'd like to hear what you think. Am I attracted to my brother?? How can I accept these thoughts to make them go? I'm started to do some meditation before bed so if anyone has any good music/videos to clear minds please could you send me a link. Thanks for reading!!