char1981
19-01-16, 22:29
Not sure which forum I should post. Dread waking up and going through another day. Have been having anxiety since I found out I had a thyroid problem, Did a lot of google searching. Convinced myself I had PCOS but my scan and blood came back normal. But for months I became more fearful, found what I believe is excess body hair which made sense with polycystic ovaries. And I couldn't help but keep checking my body throughout the day, I can see hair. Convinced I was not their before. Family and even electrolysis told me it was very mild, normal body hair. But I have convinced myself I am a freak, can see hair, take pictures and check models in magazines and other women.
I get the anxiety first and then have to check my problem areas, this cause me to feel worse and I end up paralysed with the checking in different lights. It gets me so down I have thought of suicide because I can't live like this. I feel deformed both physically and mentally. Close to tears most of the day, cry alone, can't eat most of the time.
It all came on suddenly when I was in a stressful relationship. Was fine before that.
Dr put me on beta blockers, taking 5htp and eating clean, no alcohol.
I have a appointment with Endo about thyroid which could be the cause of my anxious state.
Just not the person I was, feel ashamed, alone and unable to enjoy simple things.
---------- Post added at 22:29 ---------- Previous post was at 22:26 ----------
Been a long day, sorry for the state of my post write up.
I get the anxiety first and then have to check my problem areas, this cause me to feel worse and I end up paralysed with the checking in different lights. It gets me so down I have thought of suicide because I can't live like this. I feel deformed both physically and mentally. Close to tears most of the day, cry alone, can't eat most of the time.
It all came on suddenly when I was in a stressful relationship. Was fine before that.
Dr put me on beta blockers, taking 5htp and eating clean, no alcohol.
I have a appointment with Endo about thyroid which could be the cause of my anxious state.
Just not the person I was, feel ashamed, alone and unable to enjoy simple things.
---------- Post added at 22:29 ---------- Previous post was at 22:26 ----------
Been a long day, sorry for the state of my post write up.