feel like I'm spiralling and losing myself with anxiety

[char1981]

Not sure which forum I should post. Dread waking up and going through another day. Have been having anxiety since I found out I had a thyroid problem, Did a lot of google searching. Convinced myself I had PCOS but my scan and blood came back normal. But for months I became more fearful, found what I believe is excess body hair which made sense with polycystic ovaries. And I couldn't help but keep checking my body throughout the day, I can see hair. Convinced I was not their before. Family and even electrolysis told me it was very mild, normal body hair. But I have convinced myself I am a freak, can see hair, take pictures and check models in magazines and other women.

I get the anxiety first and then have to check my problem areas, this cause me to feel worse and I end up paralysed with the checking in different lights. It gets me so down I have thought of suicide because I can't live like this. I feel deformed both physically and mentally. Close to tears most of the day, cry alone, can't eat most of the time.

It all came on suddenly when I was in a stressful relationship. Was fine before that.

Dr put me on beta blockers, taking 5htp and eating clean, no alcohol.

I have a appointment with Endo about thyroid which could be the cause of my anxious state.

Just not the person I was, feel ashamed, alone and unable to enjoy simple things.

---------- Post added at 22:29 ---------- Previous post was at 22:26 ----------

Been a long day, sorry for the state of my post write up.

[venusbluejeans]

Hiya char1981 and welcome to NMP :welcome:

Why not take a look at our articles on our home page, they contain a wealth of information and are a great starting place for your time on the forum.

I hope you find the as site helpful and informative as I have and that you get the help and support you need here and hope that you meet a few friends along the way :yesyes:

[Kathryn01]

Hi Char. I get it. My anxiety has kept me in bed on most weekends, and I only leave the house to go to work. So I understand your sentiment about not being able to enjoy the little things. I've struggled with anxiety for about 15 years now and it is pretty consistent in that it ebbs and flows. The last six months have been a real struggle, but I recently switched to a new medication, and I'm waiting to see if that helps.

I've read on other sites that thyroid plays a pretty significant role in anxiety, and I hope your endo can give you the solution you're looking for.

[Shazamataz]

Hi there,

I've had thyroid issues with inconclusive blood results. Was slightly up for ages (and I was very anxious/agitated but specialist said I shouldn't have symptoms), then it went a little low for a while.

In my research, over active thyroid can cause anxiety but I didn't know about the extra hair. Perhaps a little extra hair is a normal part of aging? And nothing to worry about?