Afc14
21-01-16, 23:07
Hi,
I am not sure what I am doing here but I need some help, to hear that other people are going through what I am. After working at a hospice for two years I started to suffer with health anxiety. During that time I was seen in A&E for something and was wrongly told by a junior doctor that I most likely had a brain tumour. This was incorrect but spending two days believing I had a brain tumour has ruined my life. My health anxiety is so bad it is crippling me. Since I had my son in 2014 things have got worse, I cry all the time that I am going to get cancer and leave him. Everytime he says mama instead of relishing the moment and being excited I panic and want him to
Stop it makes me feel awful knowing how much he loves me and knowing I'm probably going to die and how awful that would be for him. He has a
Loving family other than me but I can't cope with the feelings. I don't like doing anything as a family I always wonder if this is the last time, will these pictures soon be heartbreaking memories for my loved ones and so it goes on.
I'm a mess and I don't know what to do. I'm finding myself wanting to distance myself from my beautiful baby boy because I don't want him to get attached to him. I have been having a sore boob and under arm and now I'm convinced I have breast cancer I'm terrified I can't sleep I keep being sick with fear then I think maybe the symptoms are in my head. I have a dr app in 2 weeks.
I feel like I am surrounded by cancer and death and bad things and I'm so scared and I just need to know it's not just me who feels this way.
I am not sure what I am doing here but I need some help, to hear that other people are going through what I am. After working at a hospice for two years I started to suffer with health anxiety. During that time I was seen in A&E for something and was wrongly told by a junior doctor that I most likely had a brain tumour. This was incorrect but spending two days believing I had a brain tumour has ruined my life. My health anxiety is so bad it is crippling me. Since I had my son in 2014 things have got worse, I cry all the time that I am going to get cancer and leave him. Everytime he says mama instead of relishing the moment and being excited I panic and want him to
Stop it makes me feel awful knowing how much he loves me and knowing I'm probably going to die and how awful that would be for him. He has a
Loving family other than me but I can't cope with the feelings. I don't like doing anything as a family I always wonder if this is the last time, will these pictures soon be heartbreaking memories for my loved ones and so it goes on.
I'm a mess and I don't know what to do. I'm finding myself wanting to distance myself from my beautiful baby boy because I don't want him to get attached to him. I have been having a sore boob and under arm and now I'm convinced I have breast cancer I'm terrified I can't sleep I keep being sick with fear then I think maybe the symptoms are in my head. I have a dr app in 2 weeks.
I feel like I am surrounded by cancer and death and bad things and I'm so scared and I just need to know it's not just me who feels this way.