girlrock
23-01-16, 16:56
Hi Everyone,
I posted back in December about my headaches. I have been having daily headaches for about two months now. I had a terrible breakdown over the Christmas holiday with this brain tumor fear. Completely ruined my holidays. Anyway, my headaches HAVE improved since my anxiety came down about 50 notches....or maybe my anxiety improved because my headaches improved. Not sure. I do have headache free days now but I still have more headache days than not. I also have intermittent shaking vision. It just shakes left and right for a second. I can't make it happen and can't figure out a link to when it happens except that I did notice that often I have just clanged my teeth together, took a big bite of something hard, or bit my nail. But I can't MAKE it happen by doing it again. This is starting to scare me also but it hasn't progressed either. It's so intermittent but happens throughout the day.
I had my follow up with my GP on Wednesday and they scheduled an MRI for this upcoming Tuesday. He says he's sure it will be clean since I have no other symptoms of a brain tumor and it's not progressing but rather improving. But he scheduled it just to help me feel better and maybe eradicate the headaches altogether (if it's stress-related).
Now since they scheduled the MRI, my anxiety is climbing again. I'm almost tempted to cancel it because I'm so scared and so convinced he's going to come into the room on Wednesday (he scheduled a next day follow up) and tell me he's sorry he was wrong and I was right and that it IS a brain tumor (I actually had a nightmare about this a week ago and convinced myself that it was a "sign").
On a side note, I've been having side pain for almost 2 weeks near my kidney that I thought was a UTI but after a 7 day round of Bactrum (called in, not tested), I had no improvement in the pain. When the doctor saw me on Wednesday he gave me a script for Macrobid to try for 5 days. They dipped my urine but it was negative but also very diluted because I've been drinking a lot of water. I will know more when the culture comes back from the lab. I HAVE had some improvement since I started he macrobid so I'll be shocked if they say my culture is negative in the lab as well. Anyway, I'm scared about this too and getting very exhausted by it!
I worry at times...what if it's kidney cancer and it spread to my brain and that's what is really going on here?! I'm crying just typing this. I'm going to start seeing a therapist and CBT soon but for now, until Wednesday, I'm going to be a nervous mess. Thanks for listening. Any words of encouragement are greatly appreciated!
---------- Post added at 11:56 ---------- Previous post was at 11:48 ----------
Oh I wanted to add, I'm not sure if I said this in my December post, that I had an ectopic pregnancy in March and needed emergency surgery. Prior to this, I had diagnosed myself with the ectopic based on my symptoms and no one would listen to me. Not my husband, family, friends, or Doctor. In fact, my doctor had the internal ultrasound wand inside of me (not finding a pregnancy in the uterus) and I asked him to look at my tube and he said no because it was probably just "too early". I landed back in the office the very next morning for a complete ultrasound and official diagnosis of the 7 week ectopic. It had a heart beat and everything. I think this episode has only increased my HA because it was a situation where I diagnosed myself, was correct, and no one listened to me or believed me. It almost burst and had I not advocated for myself, well god knows where I'd be. My husband tells me that just because I was right about the ectopic doesn't mean I am right about this. I really hope he's right. I'm so sick of this. I know it's almost over soon with the MRI next week and I'll know either way but it's driving me insane!!!
I posted back in December about my headaches. I have been having daily headaches for about two months now. I had a terrible breakdown over the Christmas holiday with this brain tumor fear. Completely ruined my holidays. Anyway, my headaches HAVE improved since my anxiety came down about 50 notches....or maybe my anxiety improved because my headaches improved. Not sure. I do have headache free days now but I still have more headache days than not. I also have intermittent shaking vision. It just shakes left and right for a second. I can't make it happen and can't figure out a link to when it happens except that I did notice that often I have just clanged my teeth together, took a big bite of something hard, or bit my nail. But I can't MAKE it happen by doing it again. This is starting to scare me also but it hasn't progressed either. It's so intermittent but happens throughout the day.
I had my follow up with my GP on Wednesday and they scheduled an MRI for this upcoming Tuesday. He says he's sure it will be clean since I have no other symptoms of a brain tumor and it's not progressing but rather improving. But he scheduled it just to help me feel better and maybe eradicate the headaches altogether (if it's stress-related).
Now since they scheduled the MRI, my anxiety is climbing again. I'm almost tempted to cancel it because I'm so scared and so convinced he's going to come into the room on Wednesday (he scheduled a next day follow up) and tell me he's sorry he was wrong and I was right and that it IS a brain tumor (I actually had a nightmare about this a week ago and convinced myself that it was a "sign").
On a side note, I've been having side pain for almost 2 weeks near my kidney that I thought was a UTI but after a 7 day round of Bactrum (called in, not tested), I had no improvement in the pain. When the doctor saw me on Wednesday he gave me a script for Macrobid to try for 5 days. They dipped my urine but it was negative but also very diluted because I've been drinking a lot of water. I will know more when the culture comes back from the lab. I HAVE had some improvement since I started he macrobid so I'll be shocked if they say my culture is negative in the lab as well. Anyway, I'm scared about this too and getting very exhausted by it!
I worry at times...what if it's kidney cancer and it spread to my brain and that's what is really going on here?! I'm crying just typing this. I'm going to start seeing a therapist and CBT soon but for now, until Wednesday, I'm going to be a nervous mess. Thanks for listening. Any words of encouragement are greatly appreciated!
---------- Post added at 11:56 ---------- Previous post was at 11:48 ----------
Oh I wanted to add, I'm not sure if I said this in my December post, that I had an ectopic pregnancy in March and needed emergency surgery. Prior to this, I had diagnosed myself with the ectopic based on my symptoms and no one would listen to me. Not my husband, family, friends, or Doctor. In fact, my doctor had the internal ultrasound wand inside of me (not finding a pregnancy in the uterus) and I asked him to look at my tube and he said no because it was probably just "too early". I landed back in the office the very next morning for a complete ultrasound and official diagnosis of the 7 week ectopic. It had a heart beat and everything. I think this episode has only increased my HA because it was a situation where I diagnosed myself, was correct, and no one listened to me or believed me. It almost burst and had I not advocated for myself, well god knows where I'd be. My husband tells me that just because I was right about the ectopic doesn't mean I am right about this. I really hope he's right. I'm so sick of this. I know it's almost over soon with the MRI next week and I'll know either way but it's driving me insane!!!