roguetwentytwo
25-01-16, 04:35
Hello everyone, hope you're all having a splendid day!
I'm nineteen and suffer from GAD. It's pretty horrible and has caused me a lot of problems over the years, socially particularly. I have low-confidence, am always up and then down, and during this period of time in particular I have been have multiple panic attacks over thoughts of dying.
Now, I understand everything - you won't be conscious after death so you won't know, it happens to everyone, it's just a thought and you shouldn't be scared. But for the last few months my body has been in a constant headspace where it doesn't snap out and every time I don't think about dying - I GO CRAZY! I think that if I'm not thinking about it I am distracting myself on purpose and ignoring reality. I always think of eternity and how I can never come back. I think about how meaningless life is, because well if it is over in an instant, how is anything that happens in it important at all. I'm only 19, as I said, yet I feel as if my entire life is falling into a large black void.
My mind never stops, ever. I can't sleep anymore and the entire world is starting to seem like one big dream. I am seeing my doctor and therapists etc. However, I just can't seem to stop worrying, I need help I think... or a girlfriend?! LOL!
Anyway, thank you for listening! Hope someone out there can relate.
I'm nineteen and suffer from GAD. It's pretty horrible and has caused me a lot of problems over the years, socially particularly. I have low-confidence, am always up and then down, and during this period of time in particular I have been have multiple panic attacks over thoughts of dying.
Now, I understand everything - you won't be conscious after death so you won't know, it happens to everyone, it's just a thought and you shouldn't be scared. But for the last few months my body has been in a constant headspace where it doesn't snap out and every time I don't think about dying - I GO CRAZY! I think that if I'm not thinking about it I am distracting myself on purpose and ignoring reality. I always think of eternity and how I can never come back. I think about how meaningless life is, because well if it is over in an instant, how is anything that happens in it important at all. I'm only 19, as I said, yet I feel as if my entire life is falling into a large black void.
My mind never stops, ever. I can't sleep anymore and the entire world is starting to seem like one big dream. I am seeing my doctor and therapists etc. However, I just can't seem to stop worrying, I need help I think... or a girlfriend?! LOL!
Anyway, thank you for listening! Hope someone out there can relate.