dee_gril
28-01-16, 04:59
Hi all, I just posted about my boob loop concerns and am going to the breast clinic tomorrow after suggestion by my GP.
During my visit to my GP I was also in for a PAP smear. During the smear she found a polyp and said it was quite large (she noted 1cm in the referral). She said mine was a white-ish coloured one and 1 cm does sound quite large indeed. She continued with the PAP but she made me bleed quite a bit. I've never bled so much with a PAP before (though the last time I had one was 3 years ago and everything looked healthy and fine then!). I am so concerned that I have more where I can't see them and I am worried that it is something nasty even though I know I read that the vast majority of them are benign. I have this unshakable feeling that I am abnormal somehow and it is making me very anxious and depressed (plus the stress about going to the breast clinic tomorrow).
Anyway my doctor didn't seem concerned and gave me a referral through public health system for removal and said the wait could take up to 12 months! I guess that's a good sign seeing as I have no symptoms and did not even realise it was there! I thought I was fine during and after the appointment about this discovery but slowly my crazy HA brain came back to haunt me. I have no relief!
So now I am scheduled to see a private Gynecologist on the 8th of February and I am thinking based on that appointment would they want to send me for a scan? Wait for results, and then schedule removal ... it sounds like this will take forever and my partner told me to stop thinking about what if's until i have seen the gynecologist. But I can't. How do people do that?!
Well a part of me won't let it go that there is something abnormal with me. Like who gets these polyps? They say it is common but 4% of women especially women who have had a few children will get them but I have never been pregnant and I am 37 (o.k close enough to 40 I guess). So i feel like an oddity and abnormal.
Also I have previously been diagnosed through a transvaginal ultrasound with PCO - many many too many little cysts in both ovaries to count and irregular (sometimes highly irregular) periods that have at times not shown itself for close to a year. However I don't seem to have other symptoms of PCOS (e.g. I am skinny, I am not overly hairy at all and as far as i know I am not insulin resistant) so I am never sure what is going on with me. My hormones are all over the place. I also had in my last ultrasound two years ago and there was an increased number of these tiny cysts plus two tiny fibroids. So now I am just terrified that if they do more investigations they will find more things 'weird, wrong' with me and I ask myself why I am so different from others?!? I wonder if this is the heart of my health anxiety - that I think that there is something inherently not right about myself.
Regardless I am so stressed about the wait, about the possible procedures (I heard the words possible hysteroscopy and that sounds SO invasive and painful) and the results. I wake up every morning fearful and the rest of the day fearful.
Has anyone had cervical polyps as big as mine ... and does that mean I will will have polyps elsewhere like in my uterus? :( :(
During my visit to my GP I was also in for a PAP smear. During the smear she found a polyp and said it was quite large (she noted 1cm in the referral). She said mine was a white-ish coloured one and 1 cm does sound quite large indeed. She continued with the PAP but she made me bleed quite a bit. I've never bled so much with a PAP before (though the last time I had one was 3 years ago and everything looked healthy and fine then!). I am so concerned that I have more where I can't see them and I am worried that it is something nasty even though I know I read that the vast majority of them are benign. I have this unshakable feeling that I am abnormal somehow and it is making me very anxious and depressed (plus the stress about going to the breast clinic tomorrow).
Anyway my doctor didn't seem concerned and gave me a referral through public health system for removal and said the wait could take up to 12 months! I guess that's a good sign seeing as I have no symptoms and did not even realise it was there! I thought I was fine during and after the appointment about this discovery but slowly my crazy HA brain came back to haunt me. I have no relief!
So now I am scheduled to see a private Gynecologist on the 8th of February and I am thinking based on that appointment would they want to send me for a scan? Wait for results, and then schedule removal ... it sounds like this will take forever and my partner told me to stop thinking about what if's until i have seen the gynecologist. But I can't. How do people do that?!
Well a part of me won't let it go that there is something abnormal with me. Like who gets these polyps? They say it is common but 4% of women especially women who have had a few children will get them but I have never been pregnant and I am 37 (o.k close enough to 40 I guess). So i feel like an oddity and abnormal.
Also I have previously been diagnosed through a transvaginal ultrasound with PCO - many many too many little cysts in both ovaries to count and irregular (sometimes highly irregular) periods that have at times not shown itself for close to a year. However I don't seem to have other symptoms of PCOS (e.g. I am skinny, I am not overly hairy at all and as far as i know I am not insulin resistant) so I am never sure what is going on with me. My hormones are all over the place. I also had in my last ultrasound two years ago and there was an increased number of these tiny cysts plus two tiny fibroids. So now I am just terrified that if they do more investigations they will find more things 'weird, wrong' with me and I ask myself why I am so different from others?!? I wonder if this is the heart of my health anxiety - that I think that there is something inherently not right about myself.
Regardless I am so stressed about the wait, about the possible procedures (I heard the words possible hysteroscopy and that sounds SO invasive and painful) and the results. I wake up every morning fearful and the rest of the day fearful.
Has anyone had cervical polyps as big as mine ... and does that mean I will will have polyps elsewhere like in my uterus? :( :(