AdamE
28-01-16, 13:33
So I've been coming to this site and a couple others for all of my issues. It helped seeing that I wasn't the only one with these oddball anxieties. Mine seemed to be a bit more unique since I was getting full on facial numbness and all but not too different.
I've been extremely proactive though. I've been getting a ton of help. On Sertraline, CBT talk therapy, etc. Had quite the revelation though after yelling at myself just after my CBT. Deep down got angry at my main symptom I've had since I was 19 (now 32). Nausea. It's crippled me all this time to where I couldn't eat in a social setting. Sometimes I even had trouble eating on my own in my own house. After I got legit angry with it the nausea disappeared. I think deep down I was missing how the past was so much that it made me physically nauseous. I yelled at my stomach and said "WHY?! LEAVE ME ALONE!! IF IT'S SOMETHING TO DO WITH THE PAST I CAN'T CHANGE IT! I DON'T WANT TO! I DON'T NEED TO! I NEED TO CREATE NEW MEMORIES! LET ME CREATE NEW MEMORIES!!!!" Bam. Nausea gone. Even went to a potluck at work and had no nausea with 80 people surrounding me. Felt weird at first. Not use to eating around people.
With my other symptoms I've had mainly issues with my head. I've started getting massages now and when I leave from there my head sensations are gone. I was there last night and even this morning I feel great. If any of you have brain fog, facial/head numbness, weakness in legs and arms, etc go get a massage on my neck and shoulders. The stress that you are building up is most likely tensing your shoulders and neck muscles and cutting off blood flow and nerves. Take care of yourself. Massages aren't too expensive and you'll find that it may be quite worth it in the long run. I'm setting mine up so I go every 2 weeks all year (poor receptionist who has to schedule that for me.... SORRYYY). But I've found extremely positive results from it so I'll spend the money I don't have on it.
I figured I'd give a little back story to that first before talking about why my title said "Torn a little". I want to stay here and help people since I've received help here from others. I tried to help others while dealing with my own issues too. But what I noticed is sometimes while reading other people's posts about what they are experiencing I tend to feed off of that and.. well.. now I have their same symptoms. Your brain is truly amazing in what it can do. If there was something you never thought about that could happen to you IT WILL HAPPEN TO YOU IF YOU LET IT OR OVER THINK IT. So I might have to leave the forum here and other places so I don't fill my head with potential new symptoms. I don't want to leave because you are all so dang amazing, caring, sympathetic, just all around great community. I wouldn't be where I'm at without you all. But I don't think I can pop on here every day and read all of the posts in fear I could create new symptoms from what others have posted. No, this isn't goodbye. Just a break. If I start feeling GREAT I need to come back and help people get through their problems. If any of you need to talk or want some pointers don't be afraid to message me. I still get emails when I get replies or new messages so I can't miss it! Love you all! Thank you for everything. You all saved my life. <3
---------- Post added at 07:33 ---------- Previous post was at 07:32 ----------
Maybe this was suppose to be in the success thread. Sorry.
I've been extremely proactive though. I've been getting a ton of help. On Sertraline, CBT talk therapy, etc. Had quite the revelation though after yelling at myself just after my CBT. Deep down got angry at my main symptom I've had since I was 19 (now 32). Nausea. It's crippled me all this time to where I couldn't eat in a social setting. Sometimes I even had trouble eating on my own in my own house. After I got legit angry with it the nausea disappeared. I think deep down I was missing how the past was so much that it made me physically nauseous. I yelled at my stomach and said "WHY?! LEAVE ME ALONE!! IF IT'S SOMETHING TO DO WITH THE PAST I CAN'T CHANGE IT! I DON'T WANT TO! I DON'T NEED TO! I NEED TO CREATE NEW MEMORIES! LET ME CREATE NEW MEMORIES!!!!" Bam. Nausea gone. Even went to a potluck at work and had no nausea with 80 people surrounding me. Felt weird at first. Not use to eating around people.
With my other symptoms I've had mainly issues with my head. I've started getting massages now and when I leave from there my head sensations are gone. I was there last night and even this morning I feel great. If any of you have brain fog, facial/head numbness, weakness in legs and arms, etc go get a massage on my neck and shoulders. The stress that you are building up is most likely tensing your shoulders and neck muscles and cutting off blood flow and nerves. Take care of yourself. Massages aren't too expensive and you'll find that it may be quite worth it in the long run. I'm setting mine up so I go every 2 weeks all year (poor receptionist who has to schedule that for me.... SORRYYY). But I've found extremely positive results from it so I'll spend the money I don't have on it.
I figured I'd give a little back story to that first before talking about why my title said "Torn a little". I want to stay here and help people since I've received help here from others. I tried to help others while dealing with my own issues too. But what I noticed is sometimes while reading other people's posts about what they are experiencing I tend to feed off of that and.. well.. now I have their same symptoms. Your brain is truly amazing in what it can do. If there was something you never thought about that could happen to you IT WILL HAPPEN TO YOU IF YOU LET IT OR OVER THINK IT. So I might have to leave the forum here and other places so I don't fill my head with potential new symptoms. I don't want to leave because you are all so dang amazing, caring, sympathetic, just all around great community. I wouldn't be where I'm at without you all. But I don't think I can pop on here every day and read all of the posts in fear I could create new symptoms from what others have posted. No, this isn't goodbye. Just a break. If I start feeling GREAT I need to come back and help people get through their problems. If any of you need to talk or want some pointers don't be afraid to message me. I still get emails when I get replies or new messages so I can't miss it! Love you all! Thank you for everything. You all saved my life. <3
---------- Post added at 07:33 ---------- Previous post was at 07:32 ----------
Maybe this was suppose to be in the success thread. Sorry.