John_Daryl
29-01-16, 10:15
Going through all of my recent posts iv realised one thing. Its humorous now it has passed. The one thing that is hard to understand however is, why is it that anything currently happening is impossible to shake off. I was diagnosed with IBS without anything other than bloods and a feel around of my stomach. Then I began to worry about misdiagnosis but I went back again and they did the same.
Before that there was lymphoma.
Then I flipped to brain tumours.
Then I flipped to skin cancer because of my birth mark.
Then diabetes.
Then a heart attack.
And now, I'm on stomach cancer as of 3 days ago, despite having pretty much the same stomach symptoms for the past 5-6 years, no vomiting, no blood, no weight loss, no loss of appetite, no unexplained tiredness, no persistent indegestion that cannot be explained.
But for whatever reason I'm fixated on my breathing even though it isn't faster or deeper. I'm also fixated on the fact that my food comes up sometimes after eating. Iv never really thought about it before because I just thought it was down to me eating fast and having general digestive problems.
Google is definitely the worst enemy of anxiety sufferers, it intensifies everything we experience.
Before that there was lymphoma.
Then I flipped to brain tumours.
Then I flipped to skin cancer because of my birth mark.
Then diabetes.
Then a heart attack.
And now, I'm on stomach cancer as of 3 days ago, despite having pretty much the same stomach symptoms for the past 5-6 years, no vomiting, no blood, no weight loss, no loss of appetite, no unexplained tiredness, no persistent indegestion that cannot be explained.
But for whatever reason I'm fixated on my breathing even though it isn't faster or deeper. I'm also fixated on the fact that my food comes up sometimes after eating. Iv never really thought about it before because I just thought it was down to me eating fast and having general digestive problems.
Google is definitely the worst enemy of anxiety sufferers, it intensifies everything we experience.