white1989
03-02-16, 15:05
im really going to lose the will to live at any point now. ive been back to my GP about these headaches as last night, I lay down in bed and was in sheer utter agony, I felt like my head was going to blow up and it woke me a number of times in the night. I didn't feel too bad this morning but it has gotten worse this afternoon again.
my GP advised coming off the pill as thought that might be a cause, but also asked if I'd like to be referred for a CT scan to which I said yes. that's not going to be for about 2 weeks despite it being put in as an 'urgent' case. I truly believe I have a tumour or a blood clot in my brain, I'm fully convinced myself I've got a long journey full of operations and fear in hospital ahead of me. I just cant cope with thinking like this. besides the pain of this headache, I cant deal with the convincing fear that I'm going to leave my family and loved ones in mourning when I pass away from this cancer.
please can someone help or reassure me, I'm really in a bad state at the moment.
my GP advised coming off the pill as thought that might be a cause, but also asked if I'd like to be referred for a CT scan to which I said yes. that's not going to be for about 2 weeks despite it being put in as an 'urgent' case. I truly believe I have a tumour or a blood clot in my brain, I'm fully convinced myself I've got a long journey full of operations and fear in hospital ahead of me. I just cant cope with thinking like this. besides the pain of this headache, I cant deal with the convincing fear that I'm going to leave my family and loved ones in mourning when I pass away from this cancer.
please can someone help or reassure me, I'm really in a bad state at the moment.