molrol
04-02-16, 15:18
One thing that always strikes me when i have a flare up of anxiety is how quickly i lose the ability to rationalise the situation.
For example, today my boss sent me an email reminding me that some information was confidential. I already knew this, but this email pressed on me the seriousness of this information and instantly i recall having a very informal chat with someone about this information. I can't exactly remember what i said but i know we talked about it and i possibly said too much. Instantly i'm panicking. I'm shaking, cold sweats, can't eat and generally can't get it out of my mind. I spoke to my workmate and told him i was worried i might have said too much and his response was 'don't worry about it, even if you have said something just wait until you see this person again and ask them not to say anything.' I have spoken to him 3 or 4 more times this afternoon, reasking him whether it's a big deal or not and he keeps replying that it isn't, i shouldn't worry and forget about it.
Why can't i? Why can't i rationalise it like he can? Im sat here panicking going over worst case scenarios and freaking out about something that someone else has said they wouldn't even give a second thought to!!
For example, today my boss sent me an email reminding me that some information was confidential. I already knew this, but this email pressed on me the seriousness of this information and instantly i recall having a very informal chat with someone about this information. I can't exactly remember what i said but i know we talked about it and i possibly said too much. Instantly i'm panicking. I'm shaking, cold sweats, can't eat and generally can't get it out of my mind. I spoke to my workmate and told him i was worried i might have said too much and his response was 'don't worry about it, even if you have said something just wait until you see this person again and ask them not to say anything.' I have spoken to him 3 or 4 more times this afternoon, reasking him whether it's a big deal or not and he keeps replying that it isn't, i shouldn't worry and forget about it.
Why can't i? Why can't i rationalise it like he can? Im sat here panicking going over worst case scenarios and freaking out about something that someone else has said they wouldn't even give a second thought to!!