snowflake293
05-02-16, 11:47
Hi everyone
After a bit of support cause after several weeks of having very little, if not no health anxiety at all I am having a wobble again :(
I had a mole on my forearm which I have had for years. Occasionally it swells up a bit and gets a bit itchy (I also have that chicken skin thing on my arms so I think its to do with that) it is about 4mm in diameter and a light brown colour with a few mid brown bits around the edges. It had a few hairs coming out of it. As I say I have had it well over 10-15 years, possibly even longer than that. It used to be darker but I picked at it and when it healed it was a bit lighter - is that normal???
I haven't shown it to the dr as I have had it for a long time so it doesnt usually bother me. Surely if it was a cancerous mole it would look different? It is fairy symmetrical but it's raised. It is only when I examine it very very closely that I notice things that 'worry' me. Before I had HA I never gave this bloody mole a second thought!
Last night I was in bits cause my uncle is dying of cancer and I am so so sad for him and I feel so bad. I feel bad worrying like this when my family need me. I am so scared of losing people I love or not being there to help my family and friends when they need me.
I was doing well but all these fears are creeping back in. I have been discharged from the therapist I was seeing and I am still on medication (150mg Sertraline) all I want to do it drink to numb it and forget it but I know I can't do that.
I am off sick and my partner is at work and I am just left to my own devices which is never good. I get married in 6 months and instead of being excited for my wedding and the life ahead of me and my partner I just keep visualising awful things happening, like him having a fatal accident. when my anxiety is bad I just get these horrible horrible thoughts and I find it so upsetting :(
I felt better after having a big cry last night, felt like a release but now it is creeping back in again. My arm was itching a bit earlier so now I can't stop touching and looking at my mole!!! stupid bloody moles!!!
Would be grateful if anyone can offer me a bit of support/reassurance cause I am feeling really terrible today :(
xx
After a bit of support cause after several weeks of having very little, if not no health anxiety at all I am having a wobble again :(
I had a mole on my forearm which I have had for years. Occasionally it swells up a bit and gets a bit itchy (I also have that chicken skin thing on my arms so I think its to do with that) it is about 4mm in diameter and a light brown colour with a few mid brown bits around the edges. It had a few hairs coming out of it. As I say I have had it well over 10-15 years, possibly even longer than that. It used to be darker but I picked at it and when it healed it was a bit lighter - is that normal???
I haven't shown it to the dr as I have had it for a long time so it doesnt usually bother me. Surely if it was a cancerous mole it would look different? It is fairy symmetrical but it's raised. It is only when I examine it very very closely that I notice things that 'worry' me. Before I had HA I never gave this bloody mole a second thought!
Last night I was in bits cause my uncle is dying of cancer and I am so so sad for him and I feel so bad. I feel bad worrying like this when my family need me. I am so scared of losing people I love or not being there to help my family and friends when they need me.
I was doing well but all these fears are creeping back in. I have been discharged from the therapist I was seeing and I am still on medication (150mg Sertraline) all I want to do it drink to numb it and forget it but I know I can't do that.
I am off sick and my partner is at work and I am just left to my own devices which is never good. I get married in 6 months and instead of being excited for my wedding and the life ahead of me and my partner I just keep visualising awful things happening, like him having a fatal accident. when my anxiety is bad I just get these horrible horrible thoughts and I find it so upsetting :(
I felt better after having a big cry last night, felt like a release but now it is creeping back in again. My arm was itching a bit earlier so now I can't stop touching and looking at my mole!!! stupid bloody moles!!!
Would be grateful if anyone can offer me a bit of support/reassurance cause I am feeling really terrible today :(
xx