Broomers
13-02-16, 18:25
I am new to nomorepanic I hope I'm posting this in the right place. Over the last few months I've found this site so helpful as a non member & im hoping someone can help me feel like I'm not alone, that's how I'm begging to feel. I'm not looking for a diagnosis but if anyone has felt or feels like this any support or reassurance would be great.
So here goes....
Rewind I gave birth to my second daughter in September 2015 vaginaly with epidural. I felt fine after the birth no more aches or pains then I had previously with my first. We had a few stressful events that followed my baby being born but I generally felt good in myself & was happy.
3-4 weeks post natal I developed a tingling sensation near my left shoulder blade it only came when I had bad posture like washing pots or sitting at a bad angle. If I didn't rotate my shoulder it almost felt like it went numb/twitchy with the tingling. As soon as I rotated my shoulder it would go. I went to my gp as my hands started to tingle slightly to, he told me it was a bit of inflammation from epidural & give it a few weeks & it would subside.
Stupidly I went home & googled, that was the day my life became a living hell. One by one I started developing more symptoms. Buzzing in my arms/legs, tingling feelings that last a few seconds here there & everywhere but disappear, twitching all over, crawling feeling on my face, twitching mouth/face, jerks that also affected my sleep & just as I'd drift to sleep id get this crazy rumbling feeling in my body. My skin went crazy sensitive, especially my lower legs I could feel my trousers on the skin & then my calves started tightening which made them sore & twitchy. I've also had constant dry eyes & skin since giving birth!!
So off I go back to my doctor sobbing & convinced I have nerve damage, he is such a lovely man & tells me this is postnatal depression/anxiety, my mouth nearly hit the floor I've been anxious before with panic attacks etc but I've never had such physical symptoms. He gave me 10mg of citalopram & sent me on my way. After 3-4 weeks I thought I noticed a difference I defiantly didn't feel so emotional or scared of my symptoms. But once again I googled & I would stop at nothing till I found an answer. I thought for a little while it could be ms but I thought jeez I must be the only patient ever with every single symptom of ms, so I discarded this then it was postpartum thyroid, then asl. But none of these were good enough answer then boom I found it, a Nero disease that can be caused by epidural. I have every symptom & I read other women's cases of it & I had similarities.
My panic went into overdrive I book emergency appo at docs & this was a different doc he did a little reflex test on me sent me for bloods & upped my anti d dosage to 20mg. Telling me that this was classic anxiety/depression told me stop googling as I'm not helping myself. I went away still not convinced, but I upped my dose, stayed away from Google & told myself if I was dying of some disease there wasn't much I could do about it anyway so why live my life worrying.
There seemed to be a light at the end of the tunnel the twitching subsided, except for my calves & the jerks/buzzing etc went away I started to sleep & felt happy. I was enjoying my children again, I believed I was going to be ok & it must be "just" anxiety. But nothing lasts forever hay....I stated to notice I was still getting the buzzy tingly feeling anywhere on my body that last a few seconds & disappear some times very rarely it stays for a day in one spot but then goes. I get a burning feeling in my muscle between my shoulder & neck when i do things like putting the washing on, cleaning up or if my neck gets cold. I've also go these strange hot & cold sensations that last a few seconds & go. The hot sensation has become more of a stinging when it happens. I ache some days so bad all over & my hands feel fuzzy. The strange sensitivity on my lower legs sometimes everywhere plagues me a lot & my tongue tingles for a few days goes away then come back again. This all gets worse a week before I'm due on my period.
Sorry for such an essay, I'm due back at docs in 2 weeks & im so frustrated with telling him how I feel & him saying its anxiety. I know I sound like a classic case of anxiety/depression but I can't get the what if? out of my head. I know we should trust our doctors & I usually do but I feel so much better, I feel normal in myself but I keep developing new symptoms. I know he's not gonna take this any further which makes me feel trapped how can he be sure this is nothing serious all I know is I felt fine until I gave birth. Also I don't have panic attacks, I do get stressed with kids etc but nothing crazy.
Is there anyone that has experienced this/feels like this? Or even got better from this? I accepted this was anxiety & im not getting better. Also I had bloods done to for b12, thyroid, etc all came back normal.
So here goes....
Rewind I gave birth to my second daughter in September 2015 vaginaly with epidural. I felt fine after the birth no more aches or pains then I had previously with my first. We had a few stressful events that followed my baby being born but I generally felt good in myself & was happy.
3-4 weeks post natal I developed a tingling sensation near my left shoulder blade it only came when I had bad posture like washing pots or sitting at a bad angle. If I didn't rotate my shoulder it almost felt like it went numb/twitchy with the tingling. As soon as I rotated my shoulder it would go. I went to my gp as my hands started to tingle slightly to, he told me it was a bit of inflammation from epidural & give it a few weeks & it would subside.
Stupidly I went home & googled, that was the day my life became a living hell. One by one I started developing more symptoms. Buzzing in my arms/legs, tingling feelings that last a few seconds here there & everywhere but disappear, twitching all over, crawling feeling on my face, twitching mouth/face, jerks that also affected my sleep & just as I'd drift to sleep id get this crazy rumbling feeling in my body. My skin went crazy sensitive, especially my lower legs I could feel my trousers on the skin & then my calves started tightening which made them sore & twitchy. I've also had constant dry eyes & skin since giving birth!!
So off I go back to my doctor sobbing & convinced I have nerve damage, he is such a lovely man & tells me this is postnatal depression/anxiety, my mouth nearly hit the floor I've been anxious before with panic attacks etc but I've never had such physical symptoms. He gave me 10mg of citalopram & sent me on my way. After 3-4 weeks I thought I noticed a difference I defiantly didn't feel so emotional or scared of my symptoms. But once again I googled & I would stop at nothing till I found an answer. I thought for a little while it could be ms but I thought jeez I must be the only patient ever with every single symptom of ms, so I discarded this then it was postpartum thyroid, then asl. But none of these were good enough answer then boom I found it, a Nero disease that can be caused by epidural. I have every symptom & I read other women's cases of it & I had similarities.
My panic went into overdrive I book emergency appo at docs & this was a different doc he did a little reflex test on me sent me for bloods & upped my anti d dosage to 20mg. Telling me that this was classic anxiety/depression told me stop googling as I'm not helping myself. I went away still not convinced, but I upped my dose, stayed away from Google & told myself if I was dying of some disease there wasn't much I could do about it anyway so why live my life worrying.
There seemed to be a light at the end of the tunnel the twitching subsided, except for my calves & the jerks/buzzing etc went away I started to sleep & felt happy. I was enjoying my children again, I believed I was going to be ok & it must be "just" anxiety. But nothing lasts forever hay....I stated to notice I was still getting the buzzy tingly feeling anywhere on my body that last a few seconds & disappear some times very rarely it stays for a day in one spot but then goes. I get a burning feeling in my muscle between my shoulder & neck when i do things like putting the washing on, cleaning up or if my neck gets cold. I've also go these strange hot & cold sensations that last a few seconds & go. The hot sensation has become more of a stinging when it happens. I ache some days so bad all over & my hands feel fuzzy. The strange sensitivity on my lower legs sometimes everywhere plagues me a lot & my tongue tingles for a few days goes away then come back again. This all gets worse a week before I'm due on my period.
Sorry for such an essay, I'm due back at docs in 2 weeks & im so frustrated with telling him how I feel & him saying its anxiety. I know I sound like a classic case of anxiety/depression but I can't get the what if? out of my head. I know we should trust our doctors & I usually do but I feel so much better, I feel normal in myself but I keep developing new symptoms. I know he's not gonna take this any further which makes me feel trapped how can he be sure this is nothing serious all I know is I felt fine until I gave birth. Also I don't have panic attacks, I do get stressed with kids etc but nothing crazy.
Is there anyone that has experienced this/feels like this? Or even got better from this? I accepted this was anxiety & im not getting better. Also I had bloods done to for b12, thyroid, etc all came back normal.