.Poppy.
16-02-16, 00:27
Some of you I'm sure know that I am very new on the road to actually fighting my anxiety. I've had two therapy sessions, a doctor's visit with another Wednesday, and as my doc doesn't feel he can best judge which medication would be best, he's set an appointment up for me with a psychiatrist on March 10th (the soonest I could get in).
I feel supported. I feel like I'm on the right path, anyway.
Yet as I sit her typing this, after a looong morning of counting my shedded hairs for fear that I'm losing them all, and after just getting done examining/fiddling with my eyebrows, panicking each time I shed one (which is apparently normal and I may be pulling some out at this point) and then consequently going through old pictures of myself to decide if my brows really ARE thinner in appearance, I have to wonder.
I know some of you have actually gotten better, but what does that mean, really? I'm taking hydroxine (sp) right now short term, as my doc felt that was the best thing he could give me without more weight from my therapist and the psych as to what would best fit me. I just take it as needed, mostly it makes me tired, sometimes it's like it creates a wall inside me - I feel anxious about something but that anxiety can't build past a certain level. Not sure if that's just because it's making me too tired to care, though.
Is that it? Do meds just make you more apathetic?
It's not really the same, but I have a dog with massive anxiety/fear and have done some research as to whether or not he'd be a candidate for drugs or not and apparently in dogs it makes them less likely to react immediately and makes recovery time much quicker. So, he sees the scary thing but is able to process it mentally better and once scary thing has passed he's able to "get over it" faster. Is that how it works?
Basically, I'm curious as to what you've tried and how it has made you feel.
I'm not sure if this is the right section, if not please move, but I'm struggling right now to see if there really is a way out of the tunnel or if you just numb the pain.
I feel supported. I feel like I'm on the right path, anyway.
Yet as I sit her typing this, after a looong morning of counting my shedded hairs for fear that I'm losing them all, and after just getting done examining/fiddling with my eyebrows, panicking each time I shed one (which is apparently normal and I may be pulling some out at this point) and then consequently going through old pictures of myself to decide if my brows really ARE thinner in appearance, I have to wonder.
I know some of you have actually gotten better, but what does that mean, really? I'm taking hydroxine (sp) right now short term, as my doc felt that was the best thing he could give me without more weight from my therapist and the psych as to what would best fit me. I just take it as needed, mostly it makes me tired, sometimes it's like it creates a wall inside me - I feel anxious about something but that anxiety can't build past a certain level. Not sure if that's just because it's making me too tired to care, though.
Is that it? Do meds just make you more apathetic?
It's not really the same, but I have a dog with massive anxiety/fear and have done some research as to whether or not he'd be a candidate for drugs or not and apparently in dogs it makes them less likely to react immediately and makes recovery time much quicker. So, he sees the scary thing but is able to process it mentally better and once scary thing has passed he's able to "get over it" faster. Is that how it works?
Basically, I'm curious as to what you've tried and how it has made you feel.
I'm not sure if this is the right section, if not please move, but I'm struggling right now to see if there really is a way out of the tunnel or if you just numb the pain.