Rebecca222
20-02-16, 12:01
Hi everyone
I'm new here but going through the hardest time in my life right now!
I have severe, crippling anxiety and depression (but the anxiety is much worse). I think the cause of this was stress built up from graduating uni, moving out with my boyfriend, money issues and job worries, as I literally woke up one day (my boyfriends birthday Infact in January) although over Christmas I wasn't eating much/feeling sick - put that down to nerves of seeing all the family.
Anyway I had a few weeks being terrible, then I had one week feeling completely normal, now it's begun again this week, even worse.
I have been prescribed 10mg citalopram and a weeks worth of lorazepam (which makes me tired but doesn't take my anxiety away so it's a lose lose situation!) as I can't sleep being anxious.
The worst part of it all is being constantly sick, I haven't been able to eat for 3 days now, when I try, I am sick. I'm exhausted. 90% of my day is spent crying, shaking, being sick in the bathroom. I want to die.
I'm on a 2 month waiting list for CBT.. Have rang every number you can think of to get help. No luck. I've tried meditation & CBT online but nothing has worked.
Plus I've read how citolopram doesn't work as effectively for anxiety (I'm way more anxious than depressed)
I was meant to begin a new job 3 weeks ago, and I've only managed to go in a few days, my boss is understanding but now my doctor has told me to have a few weeks off so I'm dreading letting my boss know.
Can someone please give me some hope because I am so close to giving up 😢
All advice and help is so appreciated x
I'm new here but going through the hardest time in my life right now!
I have severe, crippling anxiety and depression (but the anxiety is much worse). I think the cause of this was stress built up from graduating uni, moving out with my boyfriend, money issues and job worries, as I literally woke up one day (my boyfriends birthday Infact in January) although over Christmas I wasn't eating much/feeling sick - put that down to nerves of seeing all the family.
Anyway I had a few weeks being terrible, then I had one week feeling completely normal, now it's begun again this week, even worse.
I have been prescribed 10mg citalopram and a weeks worth of lorazepam (which makes me tired but doesn't take my anxiety away so it's a lose lose situation!) as I can't sleep being anxious.
The worst part of it all is being constantly sick, I haven't been able to eat for 3 days now, when I try, I am sick. I'm exhausted. 90% of my day is spent crying, shaking, being sick in the bathroom. I want to die.
I'm on a 2 month waiting list for CBT.. Have rang every number you can think of to get help. No luck. I've tried meditation & CBT online but nothing has worked.
Plus I've read how citolopram doesn't work as effectively for anxiety (I'm way more anxious than depressed)
I was meant to begin a new job 3 weeks ago, and I've only managed to go in a few days, my boss is understanding but now my doctor has told me to have a few weeks off so I'm dreading letting my boss know.
Can someone please give me some hope because I am so close to giving up 😢
All advice and help is so appreciated x