balisugar
01-03-07, 07:19
Hi there, i'm new to this site. Thought i would become a member and hopefully get help and advice etc....it is so nice to know i'm not the only one who feels 'like I'm going mad at times'
Basically i get panic attacks, anxiety, even health anxiety. My panic attacks seemed to subside a long time ago but now they are back...they came back one day when i hit the motorway and it was really bad traffic, i talked myself into one basically as I always seem to do. Anyway I was on holiday in America in September and i started getting them out there, I bring them on myself which is what i found really frustrating, my mind seems to challenge me, i.e. ohh what if you get panicky whilst your this far away or what if you ruin your holiday by getting panicky etc.
Because i did end up getting panicky (every day) it would be the first thing i'd think about in the morning i.e. how are you feeling today, are you feeling anxious etc and my mind would race round until i'd talk myself into anxiety, worrying about my health, how my heart feels etc. Do i sound mental???
Anyway i am getting married on 20th April this year and it will mean so much to me if i can be calm but also naturally excited, enjoy the day and not end up talking myself into a panic attack etc, i just feel like I'm never going to be able to break this cycle. I want to be able to go on honeymoon (to Cuba) and just enjoy myself, relax, enjoy the sites, food, weather etc, i've done it before and always enjoyed my holidays but i'm worried its association now and i will end up ruining it for myself. :(
Any tips on what I could do, read etc.
Thanks guys
xx
Basically i get panic attacks, anxiety, even health anxiety. My panic attacks seemed to subside a long time ago but now they are back...they came back one day when i hit the motorway and it was really bad traffic, i talked myself into one basically as I always seem to do. Anyway I was on holiday in America in September and i started getting them out there, I bring them on myself which is what i found really frustrating, my mind seems to challenge me, i.e. ohh what if you get panicky whilst your this far away or what if you ruin your holiday by getting panicky etc.
Because i did end up getting panicky (every day) it would be the first thing i'd think about in the morning i.e. how are you feeling today, are you feeling anxious etc and my mind would race round until i'd talk myself into anxiety, worrying about my health, how my heart feels etc. Do i sound mental???
Anyway i am getting married on 20th April this year and it will mean so much to me if i can be calm but also naturally excited, enjoy the day and not end up talking myself into a panic attack etc, i just feel like I'm never going to be able to break this cycle. I want to be able to go on honeymoon (to Cuba) and just enjoy myself, relax, enjoy the sites, food, weather etc, i've done it before and always enjoyed my holidays but i'm worried its association now and i will end up ruining it for myself. :(
Any tips on what I could do, read etc.
Thanks guys
xx