mattb1984
21-02-16, 23:20
I've just found this forum and this is my first post, hi all :)
Just wanted to run over a recent situation that has caused me significant anxiety, I've not really had a major problem with anxiety in the past, but this particular situation has caused my anxiety levels to go through the roof.
I was in a job for 10 years and had been looking for a new one for a long time, was offered one back in October that finally ticked all the boxes, excellent organisation and prospects etc.. and was really excited. Started that in first week of January. But by the end of the week I was reaching out to my old employer to go back! at the time I had convinced myself and others that the role was not really right me and that I wanted to go back to old job to explore new avenues there. So after 3 weeks in the new job I handed in my notice at the new job.
The thing is that I think this all stemmed from the anxiety of starting a new job and I did not adjust well to the change. I even told my manager at the new job that I was really anxious and they were very understanding, even offering to retract the resignation. I told them that I was fearful of getting to the end of the probation period and being let go, but despite them saying that I had been doing fine I still left. I agonised with the decision right up until the end.
I've now gone back to the old job and after only a week in have been off work due to anxiety, not sleeping well at night and irregular heart beat, and also shaking hands during the daytime. I think part of the heightened anxiety is due to the fact that I made a bad decision and I cannot now undoe it (and the realisation that I've talked myself out of something good, and that I've cost myself a good job just due to anxiety getting the better of me). There is also the twist that the job I have gone back to will become a home based post soon, as my local office is closing, that in turn is causing me more angst, because of the prospect of isolation from home working.
Has anyone ever been through a similar situation? I'm starting to feel a little calmer now, Dr prescribed some citalopram for me during the week and I have booked to have some counselling sessions.
Sorry it has been a long post, just wanted to see if anyone can offer any advice. I'm also now concerned about how difficult it would be to find another job with this one month gap on my CV. The company that I left did say that I could re apply in the future if another job that suited me better cropped up, but am not sure if they were just being polite, this also is causing me a little more anxiety as it really was somewhere I wanted to work, and feel that I have burnt bridges there.
Just wanted to run over a recent situation that has caused me significant anxiety, I've not really had a major problem with anxiety in the past, but this particular situation has caused my anxiety levels to go through the roof.
I was in a job for 10 years and had been looking for a new one for a long time, was offered one back in October that finally ticked all the boxes, excellent organisation and prospects etc.. and was really excited. Started that in first week of January. But by the end of the week I was reaching out to my old employer to go back! at the time I had convinced myself and others that the role was not really right me and that I wanted to go back to old job to explore new avenues there. So after 3 weeks in the new job I handed in my notice at the new job.
The thing is that I think this all stemmed from the anxiety of starting a new job and I did not adjust well to the change. I even told my manager at the new job that I was really anxious and they were very understanding, even offering to retract the resignation. I told them that I was fearful of getting to the end of the probation period and being let go, but despite them saying that I had been doing fine I still left. I agonised with the decision right up until the end.
I've now gone back to the old job and after only a week in have been off work due to anxiety, not sleeping well at night and irregular heart beat, and also shaking hands during the daytime. I think part of the heightened anxiety is due to the fact that I made a bad decision and I cannot now undoe it (and the realisation that I've talked myself out of something good, and that I've cost myself a good job just due to anxiety getting the better of me). There is also the twist that the job I have gone back to will become a home based post soon, as my local office is closing, that in turn is causing me more angst, because of the prospect of isolation from home working.
Has anyone ever been through a similar situation? I'm starting to feel a little calmer now, Dr prescribed some citalopram for me during the week and I have booked to have some counselling sessions.
Sorry it has been a long post, just wanted to see if anyone can offer any advice. I'm also now concerned about how difficult it would be to find another job with this one month gap on my CV. The company that I left did say that I could re apply in the future if another job that suited me better cropped up, but am not sure if they were just being polite, this also is causing me a little more anxiety as it really was somewhere I wanted to work, and feel that I have burnt bridges there.