Blackstar
22-02-16, 09:52
Morning everyone. This is a long post, so I apologise, but thank you for reading.
After a relatively blissful few years of low anxiety, I am now in full-on meltdown mode. True, I've had a stressful few months but nothing hugely out of the ordinary, and it doesn't explain the symptoms I'm having.
Also, I fully appreciate that anxiety can cause a host of symptoms, but these arrived when I felt okay and are not made worse or better by being either super-panicky or really chilled. They are always there.
So, I've had dizzy feelings for ages and ages. After seeking reassurance I tried to believe it was due to a stiff neck, inner ear problems or 'just one of those things'. Then came the flickering vision. A couple of perfect eye tests later and I've learned to just deal with it, but now it's like my vision is oscillating, which is different a very disconcerting. Then lately came the shakes. The other week I was just going about my business at the supermarket when I suddenly came over all shaky, mostly internal but some tremor in my hands (from the huge surge of panic I got?). This has happened a few times out of nowhere, and now I've started getting horrible internal shaking / vibrating when I wake up. It happened several times last night and isn't normal for me. Along with the shakes has come the pins and needles, first in my feet, then in my hands. It's made worse by movement, or by touching things, like a mild electric shock and buzzing.
Now, I've tried to stay calm but I am pretty convinced that when you take all these together that it's indicative of MS - which is one of my biggest health fears. I am the perfect demographic - female, 38 years old, northern hemisphere, history of autoimmune disease. I'm seeing the GP this Wednesday but it's just so hard to get on with life as I'm so anxious and panicky about it. It's hard to stay focused at work (I feel like telling my boss to eff off and leave me alone - not very professional!) and I can't enjoy social events as I'm too worried :weep:
I don't know what I'm really seeking as I know you can't diagnose! But it helps to just write this and know that you will all at least understand the terror of health anxiety. Although, if you have any words if wisdom from your own experience or tips on how to cope (I currently practise mindful meditation), then that would be most welcome.
Thank you for reading :)
After a relatively blissful few years of low anxiety, I am now in full-on meltdown mode. True, I've had a stressful few months but nothing hugely out of the ordinary, and it doesn't explain the symptoms I'm having.
Also, I fully appreciate that anxiety can cause a host of symptoms, but these arrived when I felt okay and are not made worse or better by being either super-panicky or really chilled. They are always there.
So, I've had dizzy feelings for ages and ages. After seeking reassurance I tried to believe it was due to a stiff neck, inner ear problems or 'just one of those things'. Then came the flickering vision. A couple of perfect eye tests later and I've learned to just deal with it, but now it's like my vision is oscillating, which is different a very disconcerting. Then lately came the shakes. The other week I was just going about my business at the supermarket when I suddenly came over all shaky, mostly internal but some tremor in my hands (from the huge surge of panic I got?). This has happened a few times out of nowhere, and now I've started getting horrible internal shaking / vibrating when I wake up. It happened several times last night and isn't normal for me. Along with the shakes has come the pins and needles, first in my feet, then in my hands. It's made worse by movement, or by touching things, like a mild electric shock and buzzing.
Now, I've tried to stay calm but I am pretty convinced that when you take all these together that it's indicative of MS - which is one of my biggest health fears. I am the perfect demographic - female, 38 years old, northern hemisphere, history of autoimmune disease. I'm seeing the GP this Wednesday but it's just so hard to get on with life as I'm so anxious and panicky about it. It's hard to stay focused at work (I feel like telling my boss to eff off and leave me alone - not very professional!) and I can't enjoy social events as I'm too worried :weep:
I don't know what I'm really seeking as I know you can't diagnose! But it helps to just write this and know that you will all at least understand the terror of health anxiety. Although, if you have any words if wisdom from your own experience or tips on how to cope (I currently practise mindful meditation), then that would be most welcome.
Thank you for reading :)