Bonnibelle
08-03-16, 10:53
I had health anxiety many years ago but overcame it. Then 4 years ago a trauma triggered anxiety, I had horrible crippling anxiety and agoraphobia. I worked hard for 2 years and overcame it, my life was great again. Then last summer I started with awful fatigue and had to have some tests. With this my anxiety returned due to having some results a little abnormal.
My ferritin and B12 were tested in summer and before Christmas. Ferritin had gone up from 15 to 31 and B12 from 212 to 501.
My HB was 15.5 so not anaemic at all. Full blood count all normal.
The only test results I have that are showing some concern to me are my cholesterol is 6.9. My HDL is 1.6 which is good. LDL is 3.9 and Triglycerides were 3.
My HBA1C (diabetes test) was 40 (20-41 is normal) but I am worried sick why it's 40! GP tells me I have no reason to worry about that at all and they will just check it annually or sooner if I develop symptoms.
My thyroid is out of wack. Had a few tests in the last year and recent results showed I am over range and hypothyroid but my GP won't treat me until my TSH reaches 10, crazy! My TSH is 6.54 (02.7-4.4) and T4 14 (12-22). I am being retested tomorrow. I am classed as subclinical despite lots of symptoms.
I eat very well. The only vice of mine is dark chocolate. I usually have a square or 2 a day of the 70-90% dark. Other than that I don't eat cakes, biscuits, white bread... I don't eat any rubbish at all. I don't eat red meat, no burgers or fatty foods. My typical day is Oats at breakfast with almond milk, snack is a banana or oats cakes with humous. Lunch is avocado on toast, beans on toast, mackerel on toast.... Dinner is veggie chilli with wholegrain rice, brown rice pasta with veggies, chicken low fat curry with wholegrain rice, chicken with potato salad using half fat soured cream and salad.... Snacks are fruit or oat cakes usually. Supper in the evening I usually have 0% fat greek yoghurt (Total yoghurt). My diet is very clean. I am even too scared to eat eggs or dairy these days.
This is why I am worried, why on earth would I be 2 marks away from the pre diabetic range of 42-48. Why is my cholesterol high? (it is in my mums family, along with hypothyroidism).
I take a liquid iron supplement daily. I also take B12 daily (liquid spray 1400ug a day), D3 2000ug a day, Biocare multivitamin which is of excellent quality. I also rub magnesium oil into my skin twice a day as I can't take the oral supplements.
I weigh 116lbs, I am 5ft tall. The only other medications I take are Mirtazapine 15mg for sleep and anxiety (been on it 3 years). I also take Loestrin 20 combined pill for very heavy periods.
I am having alot of crash days lately. I had a day of energy Friday so I did yoga, went food shopping, i expected to feel awful on Saturday but again had energy so spring cleaned my house. Then Sunday huge crash. My eyes were heavy, heavy head, felt off balance, weak..... I still felt rough yesterday. I seem to have these crash days after having a day or 2 of more energy and functioning normally doing my yoga and normal tasks. I never used to have these crash days. I just felt exhausted every day but never had days where it was so severe I'd be in bed recovering for a day or 2. Now I seem to crash a couple of days a week. I am a busy mum, I have 3 children (10, 12 & 13) I am a housewife but have had to cut right back on housework, so my husband hoovers and mops for me now. I cook, do light cleaning, feed the pets, 2 school runs a day..... I barely have energy to do these but I do. I have anxiety due to how I feel but only on my bad days, on crash days I go into high anxiety because I fear I will collapse, or end up in hospital. It sends my anxiety wild.
I have been worrying do I have addisons, do I need my cortisol checking. I am worried because my cholesterol is high, my hba1c bloods were normal but high in the normal range so I keep worrying is my dry mouth a diabetes issue and not related to my thyroid. It worries me silly every day, hence my anxiety disorder triggering again :-( My health anxiety is rife but only since all these health issues and test results concerning me.
My GP said I went through a very traumatic time October - January (my son was bullied and became housebound with crippling panic attacks and was suicidal) I had no support and had to take care of him myself. During this time I did feel more unwell and my fatigue got worse. With that I started feeling like I was walking on a boat or marshmallows, cold, weak and like I said the crash days. My son is well now and doing absolutely amazing, no thanks to the NHS. I was his carer and therapist and got him well. I admit it's left me worn out. My GP says I am subclinical hypothyroid and he thinks the amount of stress I was under has triggered CFS (chronic fatigue syndrome) as it was during that period i got worse energy wise and it's got worse despite my son now well and the stress passed.
My GP tells me I don't need to worry about my diabetes, my cholesterol is hyreditary and my thyroid we are monitoring closely. I do my best to cope as normal but if I over do things one day I really have bad crash days and it's on those days I worry and feel anxious :weep: Can anyone relate? I am working so hard re reading my anxiety books that helped me 2 years ago but I feel can they really work when it's real health issues doing this to me? I have become agoraphobic again alot of the time due to how weak and ill I feel every day. I have seen my GP 3 times in 3 months so I am being kept an eye on, he comes out to my house as I don't feel well enough to go to the GP as I have panic attacks when I go to appointments now :weep:I am devastated all of this has triggered my anxiety and agoraphobia again. I said to my husband, take away these health issues, the fatigue, crippling fatigue most days and weakness, dizziness, balance issues... and I'd be out living life and I prove that because on my none crash days I am back out in shops. I went to Aldi to do the food shop with my husband the other night to just prove it is not just anxiety doing this to me, on the days I don't feel in a crash I can function as normal.
Can I still work on my anxiety when I have all of this going on? I was out living again, doing appointments again.. now I am back unable to do appointments, or big places... I feel so annoyed with myself. My husband says this is not an anxiety issue, sort out the health issues and he thinks i will be fine again.
Sorry to offload, I just feel alone and left to suffer :weep:
My ferritin and B12 were tested in summer and before Christmas. Ferritin had gone up from 15 to 31 and B12 from 212 to 501.
My HB was 15.5 so not anaemic at all. Full blood count all normal.
The only test results I have that are showing some concern to me are my cholesterol is 6.9. My HDL is 1.6 which is good. LDL is 3.9 and Triglycerides were 3.
My HBA1C (diabetes test) was 40 (20-41 is normal) but I am worried sick why it's 40! GP tells me I have no reason to worry about that at all and they will just check it annually or sooner if I develop symptoms.
My thyroid is out of wack. Had a few tests in the last year and recent results showed I am over range and hypothyroid but my GP won't treat me until my TSH reaches 10, crazy! My TSH is 6.54 (02.7-4.4) and T4 14 (12-22). I am being retested tomorrow. I am classed as subclinical despite lots of symptoms.
I eat very well. The only vice of mine is dark chocolate. I usually have a square or 2 a day of the 70-90% dark. Other than that I don't eat cakes, biscuits, white bread... I don't eat any rubbish at all. I don't eat red meat, no burgers or fatty foods. My typical day is Oats at breakfast with almond milk, snack is a banana or oats cakes with humous. Lunch is avocado on toast, beans on toast, mackerel on toast.... Dinner is veggie chilli with wholegrain rice, brown rice pasta with veggies, chicken low fat curry with wholegrain rice, chicken with potato salad using half fat soured cream and salad.... Snacks are fruit or oat cakes usually. Supper in the evening I usually have 0% fat greek yoghurt (Total yoghurt). My diet is very clean. I am even too scared to eat eggs or dairy these days.
This is why I am worried, why on earth would I be 2 marks away from the pre diabetic range of 42-48. Why is my cholesterol high? (it is in my mums family, along with hypothyroidism).
I take a liquid iron supplement daily. I also take B12 daily (liquid spray 1400ug a day), D3 2000ug a day, Biocare multivitamin which is of excellent quality. I also rub magnesium oil into my skin twice a day as I can't take the oral supplements.
I weigh 116lbs, I am 5ft tall. The only other medications I take are Mirtazapine 15mg for sleep and anxiety (been on it 3 years). I also take Loestrin 20 combined pill for very heavy periods.
I am having alot of crash days lately. I had a day of energy Friday so I did yoga, went food shopping, i expected to feel awful on Saturday but again had energy so spring cleaned my house. Then Sunday huge crash. My eyes were heavy, heavy head, felt off balance, weak..... I still felt rough yesterday. I seem to have these crash days after having a day or 2 of more energy and functioning normally doing my yoga and normal tasks. I never used to have these crash days. I just felt exhausted every day but never had days where it was so severe I'd be in bed recovering for a day or 2. Now I seem to crash a couple of days a week. I am a busy mum, I have 3 children (10, 12 & 13) I am a housewife but have had to cut right back on housework, so my husband hoovers and mops for me now. I cook, do light cleaning, feed the pets, 2 school runs a day..... I barely have energy to do these but I do. I have anxiety due to how I feel but only on my bad days, on crash days I go into high anxiety because I fear I will collapse, or end up in hospital. It sends my anxiety wild.
I have been worrying do I have addisons, do I need my cortisol checking. I am worried because my cholesterol is high, my hba1c bloods were normal but high in the normal range so I keep worrying is my dry mouth a diabetes issue and not related to my thyroid. It worries me silly every day, hence my anxiety disorder triggering again :-( My health anxiety is rife but only since all these health issues and test results concerning me.
My GP said I went through a very traumatic time October - January (my son was bullied and became housebound with crippling panic attacks and was suicidal) I had no support and had to take care of him myself. During this time I did feel more unwell and my fatigue got worse. With that I started feeling like I was walking on a boat or marshmallows, cold, weak and like I said the crash days. My son is well now and doing absolutely amazing, no thanks to the NHS. I was his carer and therapist and got him well. I admit it's left me worn out. My GP says I am subclinical hypothyroid and he thinks the amount of stress I was under has triggered CFS (chronic fatigue syndrome) as it was during that period i got worse energy wise and it's got worse despite my son now well and the stress passed.
My GP tells me I don't need to worry about my diabetes, my cholesterol is hyreditary and my thyroid we are monitoring closely. I do my best to cope as normal but if I over do things one day I really have bad crash days and it's on those days I worry and feel anxious :weep: Can anyone relate? I am working so hard re reading my anxiety books that helped me 2 years ago but I feel can they really work when it's real health issues doing this to me? I have become agoraphobic again alot of the time due to how weak and ill I feel every day. I have seen my GP 3 times in 3 months so I am being kept an eye on, he comes out to my house as I don't feel well enough to go to the GP as I have panic attacks when I go to appointments now :weep:I am devastated all of this has triggered my anxiety and agoraphobia again. I said to my husband, take away these health issues, the fatigue, crippling fatigue most days and weakness, dizziness, balance issues... and I'd be out living life and I prove that because on my none crash days I am back out in shops. I went to Aldi to do the food shop with my husband the other night to just prove it is not just anxiety doing this to me, on the days I don't feel in a crash I can function as normal.
Can I still work on my anxiety when I have all of this going on? I was out living again, doing appointments again.. now I am back unable to do appointments, or big places... I feel so annoyed with myself. My husband says this is not an anxiety issue, sort out the health issues and he thinks i will be fine again.
Sorry to offload, I just feel alone and left to suffer :weep: