RyanTheWorrier
09-03-16, 01:49
Hey guys
Basically my partner has gone to one of his friends parents funerals up north so he's gone for a few days.
Anyway he's not out as gay to his parents so can't often talk when he is with them but I see him a lot and he's a great guy so I don't mind.
Anyway after not hearing all day I went in to panic mode thinking he didn't love me etc you know the usual anxiety stuff
I called him at 23:30 as he wasn't replying to me after getting a very generic reply about bad signal but I could see my messages were recivied.
Anyway I text him far too much even before calling and after calling he turned his phone off as was likely annoyed as it was late and he's sharing a hotel room with his parents.
I'm in mega panic mode he'll leave me over this as he has left me before when I became so over the top. He understands I have anxiety but not fully as I have been fine for ages except I get very insecure.
So yeah freaking out as I obviously know not to text anymore tonight but if I don't hear tomorrow I'm really going to be in a shitty slump of a mood or even worse he is pissed off enough to leave me or get angry. I mean I know he's trying to be there for a friend and I shouldn't of been so obsessive in the first place but hind sight is a great thing eh... :(
Edit: I know I sound so stupid but he has been there for me so much and I've nearly pushed him away due to my insecurities and accusing him in the past to the point I'm on quite thin ice.
Don't know if to text him in the morning or wait until the evening after the funeral is over and just be normal as I've sent about 10 texts apologising so might be best to just wait now? I'm not good at waiting unfortunately
Basically my partner has gone to one of his friends parents funerals up north so he's gone for a few days.
Anyway he's not out as gay to his parents so can't often talk when he is with them but I see him a lot and he's a great guy so I don't mind.
Anyway after not hearing all day I went in to panic mode thinking he didn't love me etc you know the usual anxiety stuff
I called him at 23:30 as he wasn't replying to me after getting a very generic reply about bad signal but I could see my messages were recivied.
Anyway I text him far too much even before calling and after calling he turned his phone off as was likely annoyed as it was late and he's sharing a hotel room with his parents.
I'm in mega panic mode he'll leave me over this as he has left me before when I became so over the top. He understands I have anxiety but not fully as I have been fine for ages except I get very insecure.
So yeah freaking out as I obviously know not to text anymore tonight but if I don't hear tomorrow I'm really going to be in a shitty slump of a mood or even worse he is pissed off enough to leave me or get angry. I mean I know he's trying to be there for a friend and I shouldn't of been so obsessive in the first place but hind sight is a great thing eh... :(
Edit: I know I sound so stupid but he has been there for me so much and I've nearly pushed him away due to my insecurities and accusing him in the past to the point I'm on quite thin ice.
Don't know if to text him in the morning or wait until the evening after the funeral is over and just be normal as I've sent about 10 texts apologising so might be best to just wait now? I'm not good at waiting unfortunately