nononono
11-03-16, 02:14
so, possible TMI (sorry beforehand):
along with my recent HIV scare (which is still ongoing even if i came back neg and the dude came back neg as well, i'm little calmer though) and the fact that i most likely contracted herpes from my gf (long term, poly), i noticed a marble sized lump between my anus and vagina located on the right side almost on my right buttock. it is hard to the touch and does not usually hurt unless i touch it directly.
i know it is not a lymph node because to my knowledge there are no lymph nodes on the perineum and it certainly does not feel like one.
I did have it for some time (about a year or so), only it was smaller than a pea, did not hurt and i could feel it closer to my anus which led me to believe it was possibly a hemorrhoid.
it made sense since i've suffered IBS for about two years and hemorrhoids are a common ailment; now I'm not so sure...
so a little timeline on this:
last saturday i went to a party, got completely smashed, ate about a total of 1kg of tabbouleh and due to my IBS, spent the whole night pooping. since i normally feel i'm never done i usually strain a lot after being finished because i want to make 100% sure i've emptied my innards so i don't have to head back to the restroom repeatedly (which i did anyway). i'm also kind of a clean freak so i usually wipe excessively and sometimes hurt myself in the process. this is why at the beginning i thought it was possibly a thrombosed hemorrhoid.
fast forward a few hours, it's sunday i'm hella hungover, i feel like crap, i do notice the lump is a little bit swollen but make none if it because i thought it was probably related to my excessive pooping/wiping. every inch of my body hurts anyway so it kinda downplays the monstrosity between my thighs.
monday and tuesday go by, i don't notice it as much since it doesn't usually hurt continuously, only if it's directly touched. thought probably the dull pain was herpes related since i had a recent flare up of what looked like herpes (not confirmed by doctor, but gf does have herpes, had a flareup and two weeks later i came down with similar symptoms).
wednesday 5 in the morning i wake up with diarrhea (IBS acting up) and when i wipe i notice the pain. since i feel like crap, i take the day off and go back to sleep and think none of it.
wake up at 9 am again, take a shower, and notice the pain again, go back to my room and examine it with a mirror. that's when i see the horror; it is easily visible, it is the size of a small grape and it's located in the right hand side of my perineum, naturally, i freak out.
message my gf and she tells me not to worry, that it's probably not as bad as i think it is. head to her place and have her take a look and touch it, she freaks out too.
now it's thursday, it hasn't grown or anything but it feels harder. so i ask dr google (now, i know i shouldn't have done that) and symptoms match more with bartholin's cyst, the only thing is that's a little below the area where a bartholin's cyst would usually appear (less than a cm) which naturally freaks me tf out because what if cancer
anyway i know i shouldn't ask for a diagnosis (which might look like i do but i've found describing my symptoms calms me down a bit), but at least i would like to know if i should go to an ob/gyn, dermatologist or a plain GP.
i think i've let too much time pass and i don't even know which doctor to visit first. i just quit my job, my last day is on monday and i'm a little tight on money so i don't wanna eff this up
i just wish 3 days could pass without me freaking out about my health
along with my recent HIV scare (which is still ongoing even if i came back neg and the dude came back neg as well, i'm little calmer though) and the fact that i most likely contracted herpes from my gf (long term, poly), i noticed a marble sized lump between my anus and vagina located on the right side almost on my right buttock. it is hard to the touch and does not usually hurt unless i touch it directly.
i know it is not a lymph node because to my knowledge there are no lymph nodes on the perineum and it certainly does not feel like one.
I did have it for some time (about a year or so), only it was smaller than a pea, did not hurt and i could feel it closer to my anus which led me to believe it was possibly a hemorrhoid.
it made sense since i've suffered IBS for about two years and hemorrhoids are a common ailment; now I'm not so sure...
so a little timeline on this:
last saturday i went to a party, got completely smashed, ate about a total of 1kg of tabbouleh and due to my IBS, spent the whole night pooping. since i normally feel i'm never done i usually strain a lot after being finished because i want to make 100% sure i've emptied my innards so i don't have to head back to the restroom repeatedly (which i did anyway). i'm also kind of a clean freak so i usually wipe excessively and sometimes hurt myself in the process. this is why at the beginning i thought it was possibly a thrombosed hemorrhoid.
fast forward a few hours, it's sunday i'm hella hungover, i feel like crap, i do notice the lump is a little bit swollen but make none if it because i thought it was probably related to my excessive pooping/wiping. every inch of my body hurts anyway so it kinda downplays the monstrosity between my thighs.
monday and tuesday go by, i don't notice it as much since it doesn't usually hurt continuously, only if it's directly touched. thought probably the dull pain was herpes related since i had a recent flare up of what looked like herpes (not confirmed by doctor, but gf does have herpes, had a flareup and two weeks later i came down with similar symptoms).
wednesday 5 in the morning i wake up with diarrhea (IBS acting up) and when i wipe i notice the pain. since i feel like crap, i take the day off and go back to sleep and think none of it.
wake up at 9 am again, take a shower, and notice the pain again, go back to my room and examine it with a mirror. that's when i see the horror; it is easily visible, it is the size of a small grape and it's located in the right hand side of my perineum, naturally, i freak out.
message my gf and she tells me not to worry, that it's probably not as bad as i think it is. head to her place and have her take a look and touch it, she freaks out too.
now it's thursday, it hasn't grown or anything but it feels harder. so i ask dr google (now, i know i shouldn't have done that) and symptoms match more with bartholin's cyst, the only thing is that's a little below the area where a bartholin's cyst would usually appear (less than a cm) which naturally freaks me tf out because what if cancer
anyway i know i shouldn't ask for a diagnosis (which might look like i do but i've found describing my symptoms calms me down a bit), but at least i would like to know if i should go to an ob/gyn, dermatologist or a plain GP.
i think i've let too much time pass and i don't even know which doctor to visit first. i just quit my job, my last day is on monday and i'm a little tight on money so i don't wanna eff this up
i just wish 3 days could pass without me freaking out about my health