Frenchgirl
13-03-16, 05:28
Hi everyone,
I was diagnosed with GAD about seven years ago and had panic disorder and some Ocd as well. I was on cipralex for most of the time. I stopped about a year ago when i was trying to get pregnant. My anxiety did get bad about 5 weeks and lost the baby at 8 weeks. We are now trying again but i have been having clusters of panic attack for 3 weeks now. I don't know what it is but it feels different it's like I have paranoia. I fear that things I have done in the past will come back at me and something bad will happen. Today I am obssessing about my carpet that is lifting at places and that I damaged it when I cleaned it and that I will be held responsible and have to pay to replace the entire carpet. I am having absolute obsessing thoughts that something bad will happen. I tried to do some cbt but can't get to beleive in the false thoughts and still beleive it will for sure 100% happen. I also get paranoid my emails are recorded forever on the "web" and my phone as been compromised , I'm being recorded or that there is big brother watching and that it could be used against me one day. I usually make the mistake to google everything and most of the time it scare me more and send me right into panic attack mode. I am scared that I am gonna lose everything I worked so hard for.
I am feeling that I don't have a choice to go back on meds now I have no quality of life and no interests in it either when I have a panic/obsessive episode.
I am now ten fold worried that I might hurt my baby if I'm pregnant by taking the medicine...
Has anyone had something like this happen?
I was diagnosed with GAD about seven years ago and had panic disorder and some Ocd as well. I was on cipralex for most of the time. I stopped about a year ago when i was trying to get pregnant. My anxiety did get bad about 5 weeks and lost the baby at 8 weeks. We are now trying again but i have been having clusters of panic attack for 3 weeks now. I don't know what it is but it feels different it's like I have paranoia. I fear that things I have done in the past will come back at me and something bad will happen. Today I am obssessing about my carpet that is lifting at places and that I damaged it when I cleaned it and that I will be held responsible and have to pay to replace the entire carpet. I am having absolute obsessing thoughts that something bad will happen. I tried to do some cbt but can't get to beleive in the false thoughts and still beleive it will for sure 100% happen. I also get paranoid my emails are recorded forever on the "web" and my phone as been compromised , I'm being recorded or that there is big brother watching and that it could be used against me one day. I usually make the mistake to google everything and most of the time it scare me more and send me right into panic attack mode. I am scared that I am gonna lose everything I worked so hard for.
I am feeling that I don't have a choice to go back on meds now I have no quality of life and no interests in it either when I have a panic/obsessive episode.
I am now ten fold worried that I might hurt my baby if I'm pregnant by taking the medicine...
Has anyone had something like this happen?