.Poppy.
16-03-16, 14:51
Admittedly, I've been kind of a mess the past few days. My psych upped my lexapro from 5 mg to 10 mg daily, so I've had to adjust to that. My anxiety has been bouncing from one issue to another, sometimes I'm anxious over a multitude of things at once. Also feeling shaky in general, and have been prone to headaches.
However, I've started to develop these little red bumps on my arms and my stomach. For some reason, these are on my radar and I'm freaking out about them big time. And not even because I think they're super sinister! For some reason I've gotten it in my head that it's this strange form of acne and it's going to cover my body. I vaguely remember reading a horror story about accutane (which I am about to finish taking) where a woman started to get cysts in strange places where she'd never had them before, as well as stories where people continued to get acne but it changed.
I know, it's such a vain thing to worry about. I keep trying to tell myself that it's a silly worry, or that it's something simple - maybe flea bites (I do have a dog!) or ladybug bites or something else. But it's not working. It doesn't help that I have a couple of little red bumps on my face that I've had for a couple of months now, so I'm convinced that they're the same thing and will spread but never go away.
Anyway...I showed them to my mom and she suggested I go to the doctor in case it's a reaction to the medication. I'm seeing the on-call doctor, not my regular guy, and I don't like him quite as much but he's okay I think. I'm just afraid he'll say it's something bad...or that he'll say it's something harmless and I won't believe him.
I don't know what I'm asking really...just for support I guess. I don't feel too silly for going in since it's something that can be seen and not something I really have to describe but I'm still scared to death.
However, I've started to develop these little red bumps on my arms and my stomach. For some reason, these are on my radar and I'm freaking out about them big time. And not even because I think they're super sinister! For some reason I've gotten it in my head that it's this strange form of acne and it's going to cover my body. I vaguely remember reading a horror story about accutane (which I am about to finish taking) where a woman started to get cysts in strange places where she'd never had them before, as well as stories where people continued to get acne but it changed.
I know, it's such a vain thing to worry about. I keep trying to tell myself that it's a silly worry, or that it's something simple - maybe flea bites (I do have a dog!) or ladybug bites or something else. But it's not working. It doesn't help that I have a couple of little red bumps on my face that I've had for a couple of months now, so I'm convinced that they're the same thing and will spread but never go away.
Anyway...I showed them to my mom and she suggested I go to the doctor in case it's a reaction to the medication. I'm seeing the on-call doctor, not my regular guy, and I don't like him quite as much but he's okay I think. I'm just afraid he'll say it's something bad...or that he'll say it's something harmless and I won't believe him.
I don't know what I'm asking really...just for support I guess. I don't feel too silly for going in since it's something that can be seen and not something I really have to describe but I'm still scared to death.