inha
23-03-16, 23:34
Hi, well I haven't been here for a few months.
My HA is back in full force, and I just don't know what to do anymore. As the title says, I'm now afraid of DVT and PE. I'm a mess, I cry when I call my parents because I believe it's the last time I will see them, I have panic attacks at uni, I can't sleep and I check my legs compulsively.
I'm currently doing CBT but it's not helping a lot, and I try to practice mindfulness as best as I can... to no avail for now.
I have shooting pains in one leg (calf muscle, thigh and shin), and from today I've felt a dull, tight ache behind my knee. I fear DVT because it's so often misdiagnosed and doctors won't refer me for a least a D-dimer. I'm absolutely convinced there's no other explanation for my pain. I sometimes feel short of breath and I've read studies that concluded that many patients only have shortness of breath on exertion/are not in excruciating pain and still have PE.
I'm basically waiting to drop dead and haven't showered for 2 days for fear of dying while in the bathroom. I'm at loss really, I realise this is ridiculous but I can't shake it.
The pains won't go. They keep happening, and now when I fold my legs, I even feel like my calf muscles are all big/swollen/tensed up so it adds to the discomfort. I have back, chest, shoulder and neck pains on and off, sometimes spontaneously, sometimes with breathing.
According to all my research I have some 6/7% chance of having DVT. It's not a lot. It's 94% chance of not having it. But I can't reason myself. I feel really hopeless.
I would be very grateful to hear from some of you who might have been in my situation. Thanks for reading !
EDIT: I just found an old post of mine where I basically ranted about the same thing but for another potentially deadly condition. It's not that I'm lacking evidence that all of this can be anxiety. But it just doesn't help. I'm too scared...
My HA is back in full force, and I just don't know what to do anymore. As the title says, I'm now afraid of DVT and PE. I'm a mess, I cry when I call my parents because I believe it's the last time I will see them, I have panic attacks at uni, I can't sleep and I check my legs compulsively.
I'm currently doing CBT but it's not helping a lot, and I try to practice mindfulness as best as I can... to no avail for now.
I have shooting pains in one leg (calf muscle, thigh and shin), and from today I've felt a dull, tight ache behind my knee. I fear DVT because it's so often misdiagnosed and doctors won't refer me for a least a D-dimer. I'm absolutely convinced there's no other explanation for my pain. I sometimes feel short of breath and I've read studies that concluded that many patients only have shortness of breath on exertion/are not in excruciating pain and still have PE.
I'm basically waiting to drop dead and haven't showered for 2 days for fear of dying while in the bathroom. I'm at loss really, I realise this is ridiculous but I can't shake it.
The pains won't go. They keep happening, and now when I fold my legs, I even feel like my calf muscles are all big/swollen/tensed up so it adds to the discomfort. I have back, chest, shoulder and neck pains on and off, sometimes spontaneously, sometimes with breathing.
According to all my research I have some 6/7% chance of having DVT. It's not a lot. It's 94% chance of not having it. But I can't reason myself. I feel really hopeless.
I would be very grateful to hear from some of you who might have been in my situation. Thanks for reading !
EDIT: I just found an old post of mine where I basically ranted about the same thing but for another potentially deadly condition. It's not that I'm lacking evidence that all of this can be anxiety. But it just doesn't help. I'm too scared...