Bluesky7
02-04-16, 14:52
Hi,
Glad to write here...my english is notbso good but I will try to do my best.
From november 2015 anxiety choose me and give me the most ugly simptom: derealization...I had a very stresfull period at my job (I did a mistake and almost lose my job). In the same 2015 my mother was ill and I was verry scared....now she is ok...
I also fight with anxiety in 2002. One year I had panick attack, derealization eppisode. I was lucky because after a year simptoms dissapeared (without medicine with a therapeut)
Now unfortunately I dont feel me...I feel like everything is part of a dream and I cannot see me alice. Is very strange and scaring. Derealization is with me everytime...I miss to feel that I am alive. I have seen in december a therapist but didnt help me much (she wanted to give me a deadline for improving my simptoms if not...medicine. )
I have started from december to see other therapist ( the same from 2002) . Unfortunately I am feelung day by day more derealized. My simptoms are:
-pressure in head
-dizziness in my head
-sensitivity to light and there are moments when I cannot focus well the image and sometimes I cannot move my eyes properly
-affraid to go out (but I still run even if I am scared to not happened something bad with me)
-cannot focus at work (I do regular tasks in much more time)
-sensation that I can go straigtt and dizziness ( especially at work)
-I cannot sleep ( I wake up with pressure in head and I cannot move my eyes )
-I try to feel that I am alive..to not have the feeling that everything is a dream.Like I have to convince myself that I am alive ..is a habbit to try to detect myself..
-my memory is poor..I forget often
-I am feeling very tired
I am so afraid to not have a brain tumor...
I am not taking medicine...only naturist.
I am very sad because I cannot run (I love so much to run)/..
I wish you all all the best,
Beatrice
Glad to write here...my english is notbso good but I will try to do my best.
From november 2015 anxiety choose me and give me the most ugly simptom: derealization...I had a very stresfull period at my job (I did a mistake and almost lose my job). In the same 2015 my mother was ill and I was verry scared....now she is ok...
I also fight with anxiety in 2002. One year I had panick attack, derealization eppisode. I was lucky because after a year simptoms dissapeared (without medicine with a therapeut)
Now unfortunately I dont feel me...I feel like everything is part of a dream and I cannot see me alice. Is very strange and scaring. Derealization is with me everytime...I miss to feel that I am alive. I have seen in december a therapist but didnt help me much (she wanted to give me a deadline for improving my simptoms if not...medicine. )
I have started from december to see other therapist ( the same from 2002) . Unfortunately I am feelung day by day more derealized. My simptoms are:
-pressure in head
-dizziness in my head
-sensitivity to light and there are moments when I cannot focus well the image and sometimes I cannot move my eyes properly
-affraid to go out (but I still run even if I am scared to not happened something bad with me)
-cannot focus at work (I do regular tasks in much more time)
-sensation that I can go straigtt and dizziness ( especially at work)
-I cannot sleep ( I wake up with pressure in head and I cannot move my eyes )
-I try to feel that I am alive..to not have the feeling that everything is a dream.Like I have to convince myself that I am alive ..is a habbit to try to detect myself..
-my memory is poor..I forget often
-I am feeling very tired
I am so afraid to not have a brain tumor...
I am not taking medicine...only naturist.
I am very sad because I cannot run (I love so much to run)/..
I wish you all all the best,
Beatrice