Gemmal
05-04-16, 10:17
Morning all,
I have been on this forum a lot of the past four years with this constant obsession about Hodgkins Lymphoma.
Absolutely convinced myself i had it back in 2012 where i spent an absolute fortune on blood tests-chest x rays and harassed doctors for months.
I have managed to stay away from the docs for three years now but i am secretly still struggling
Of course google has not been my friend- i have been googling how long you can live with untreated lymphoma and promised myself once i get to the 5 year mark enough is enough and i have to start living my life.
i am so angry at myself for wasting four years of my 20's on an illness which i potentially dont even have.
At a total loss here :(
I have been on this forum a lot of the past four years with this constant obsession about Hodgkins Lymphoma.
Absolutely convinced myself i had it back in 2012 where i spent an absolute fortune on blood tests-chest x rays and harassed doctors for months.
I have managed to stay away from the docs for three years now but i am secretly still struggling
Of course google has not been my friend- i have been googling how long you can live with untreated lymphoma and promised myself once i get to the 5 year mark enough is enough and i have to start living my life.
i am so angry at myself for wasting four years of my 20's on an illness which i potentially dont even have.
At a total loss here :(