Mackensie
06-04-16, 16:02
Hello everyone, My name is Mackensie I'm 22 years old and have suffered from emetophobia ever since i was in 2nd grade and it stemmed into other underlying problems of anxiety. I was afraid to leave my home in fear of getting sick, i used to think going to school would make me sick, so i eventually switched over to online schooling and eventually came over my emetophobia and my anxiety problems and everything seemed alright in the world!
I am now living abroad in Germany with my boyfriend, this was a huge step for me to take, :yesyes: however in order for me to stay here i NEED to know the language and take a language course in order to prolong my stay.
My anxiety has been extremely bad lately with this course, just thinking about it makes my anxiety flare up... i haven't actually been to a real class in YEARS and it's bringing back a lot of really bad memories..., I have already attended the class once and it's a very small class but there is a lot of interaction going on between students and the teacher and i think i might have a bit of social anxiety going on, i get very hazy, my heart feels like its going to beat out of my chest and i am constantly thinking i am doing something weird or i might just go insane and do something out of my control! constantly thinking that someone is thinking poorly of me and it drags me down and i lose every little bit of confidence i have.
I would really love some advice in what i could do to possible calm myself down about this course and show myself that it isnt anything to worry about, I have already missed three classes because of my anxiety and I'm tired of missing class, it just makes it worse and worse everytime i miss a class, I'm going to bring it up to my teacher to see if my boyfriend can maybe sit in the class with me, he's german so i don't think he will be needing to learn too much from it :hugs:
I am now living abroad in Germany with my boyfriend, this was a huge step for me to take, :yesyes: however in order for me to stay here i NEED to know the language and take a language course in order to prolong my stay.
My anxiety has been extremely bad lately with this course, just thinking about it makes my anxiety flare up... i haven't actually been to a real class in YEARS and it's bringing back a lot of really bad memories..., I have already attended the class once and it's a very small class but there is a lot of interaction going on between students and the teacher and i think i might have a bit of social anxiety going on, i get very hazy, my heart feels like its going to beat out of my chest and i am constantly thinking i am doing something weird or i might just go insane and do something out of my control! constantly thinking that someone is thinking poorly of me and it drags me down and i lose every little bit of confidence i have.
I would really love some advice in what i could do to possible calm myself down about this course and show myself that it isnt anything to worry about, I have already missed three classes because of my anxiety and I'm tired of missing class, it just makes it worse and worse everytime i miss a class, I'm going to bring it up to my teacher to see if my boyfriend can maybe sit in the class with me, he's german so i don't think he will be needing to learn too much from it :hugs: