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13-04-16, 02:41
Sorry in advance for the tmi.
I've had external hemorrhoids since I had my 1st pregnancy over 18 years ago. They got progressively worse with each pregnancy and weight gain. I had mention to the doctors before and they seem to think with weight loss they would subside. They didn't.
A few years back I had an external one sort of balloon up. Got bruised, a little bloody and then retreat. It was terrible painful. But resolved on own. I know have weird looking hemorrhoids since the last two pregnancies. They protrude out more and I'm guessing that's what caused that. My husband says they look the same since I was pregnant, that they look baggy and stick out a little like tiny lips. (Sorry tmi)
After Farrah Fawcett died of anal cancer I freaked out and went to an on call doctor at the practice. She was impatient with me and I don't recall if she even looked. But I go to my gyno every year and she would be blind to not see them hanging out there. When my old gyno did a digital exam I know she could feel them.
They rarely bother me anymore. Sometimes itchy, rarely very bloody. Sometimes just a tinge on occasion. If I have softer stool it makes it shaped funny. That's about it. Been like this for years.
But since my GI issues (diarrhea). I am obsessed with this. What if it's anal cancer. I don't fall into high risk for that disease but that doesn't mean anything. Nothing has changed by looks. But what if on a molecular level! I'm seeing my regular doctor about this Friday.
I'm only almost 42. I want another 42 years. I don't want to be greedy. Just help my children get through their adult years and middle age and be a part of my future grandchildren lives and then maybe see a great-grandchild or 3. I am losing my mind and driving husband away. I'm afraid all my little ailments is cancer spreading and my body fighting. I'm just going nuts. I want to enjoy my kids and family. And enjoy my wonderful life. I love to live. I don't want to be distracted and panicked anymore. But this could be it. I am having a 24/7 panic attack. This needs to stop. But how can it stop if it's actually something.
I've had HA bouts my entire life. I've been good for some time. This is the worse I've ever had it and I've had it badly several times. My advancing age makes everything more possible.
I'm losing IT
I've had external hemorrhoids since I had my 1st pregnancy over 18 years ago. They got progressively worse with each pregnancy and weight gain. I had mention to the doctors before and they seem to think with weight loss they would subside. They didn't.
A few years back I had an external one sort of balloon up. Got bruised, a little bloody and then retreat. It was terrible painful. But resolved on own. I know have weird looking hemorrhoids since the last two pregnancies. They protrude out more and I'm guessing that's what caused that. My husband says they look the same since I was pregnant, that they look baggy and stick out a little like tiny lips. (Sorry tmi)
After Farrah Fawcett died of anal cancer I freaked out and went to an on call doctor at the practice. She was impatient with me and I don't recall if she even looked. But I go to my gyno every year and she would be blind to not see them hanging out there. When my old gyno did a digital exam I know she could feel them.
They rarely bother me anymore. Sometimes itchy, rarely very bloody. Sometimes just a tinge on occasion. If I have softer stool it makes it shaped funny. That's about it. Been like this for years.
But since my GI issues (diarrhea). I am obsessed with this. What if it's anal cancer. I don't fall into high risk for that disease but that doesn't mean anything. Nothing has changed by looks. But what if on a molecular level! I'm seeing my regular doctor about this Friday.
I'm only almost 42. I want another 42 years. I don't want to be greedy. Just help my children get through their adult years and middle age and be a part of my future grandchildren lives and then maybe see a great-grandchild or 3. I am losing my mind and driving husband away. I'm afraid all my little ailments is cancer spreading and my body fighting. I'm just going nuts. I want to enjoy my kids and family. And enjoy my wonderful life. I love to live. I don't want to be distracted and panicked anymore. But this could be it. I am having a 24/7 panic attack. This needs to stop. But how can it stop if it's actually something.
I've had HA bouts my entire life. I've been good for some time. This is the worse I've ever had it and I've had it badly several times. My advancing age makes everything more possible.
I'm losing IT