Anotherillness
13-04-16, 18:23
Hi everyone.
This is my first post and one of my first steps I am taking to recovery (I hope). I always respected how powerful the mind can be but I never thought I'd be the victim of my own thoughts. I've been suffering, on and off, with HA (health anxiety) for about 6 months but this latest round feels like a monster I could never have imagined.
Last week I started to feel a weakness in my right arm. I quickly came to the conclusion that it was ALS and the spiral grew from there. The feeling of weakness is real but I can overcome this weakness when wanting to lift something for example. It tingles the whole time and feels like its twitching (tiny movements) all the time. Every rational thought in my mind tell me that this is a result of breaking the car window with a metal bar. Embarrassing but I managed to lock myself out of the car 😳. I just can't shake the thought that I have als and this event somehow uncovered it. The panic attacks come and go, my sleep has been non existent and my poor wife is bearing the brunt of all this. It's got all the hallmarks of HA but with a twitch of a muscle my mind always reverts back to worst case scenario and BOOM, the panic takes over.
This is my first post and one of my first steps I am taking to recovery (I hope). I always respected how powerful the mind can be but I never thought I'd be the victim of my own thoughts. I've been suffering, on and off, with HA (health anxiety) for about 6 months but this latest round feels like a monster I could never have imagined.
Last week I started to feel a weakness in my right arm. I quickly came to the conclusion that it was ALS and the spiral grew from there. The feeling of weakness is real but I can overcome this weakness when wanting to lift something for example. It tingles the whole time and feels like its twitching (tiny movements) all the time. Every rational thought in my mind tell me that this is a result of breaking the car window with a metal bar. Embarrassing but I managed to lock myself out of the car 😳. I just can't shake the thought that I have als and this event somehow uncovered it. The panic attacks come and go, my sleep has been non existent and my poor wife is bearing the brunt of all this. It's got all the hallmarks of HA but with a twitch of a muscle my mind always reverts back to worst case scenario and BOOM, the panic takes over.