deamond117
07-03-07, 16:55
man i hate this battle i have with my head everyday trying to reasure myself everytime i get used to a pain anouther appear which sets me off i went out 2 a lesson at collage feeling great telling myself i will be stronger and i will ignore this so i dont get worked up im 19 for goodness sake i should be worrying about heart desease at 40 odd i eat perfectly hardly any saturates ive been montored by my docter on a machine blood pressure and calestoral taken im fine its all cos my dad died in may last year and ive been fearing this since its heredatery sigh i guess im worryed now that stress will kill me sigh damn...
i know im fine i get used to it and bam a new pain will set me off cos i had a pain in my back i thought im dieing cos i read on here that some1s husband had a heart attack and it started in there back,
half way home i think to myself wait did laura (my girlfriend) say she found a knot in my back a week ago then i thought you ideot sigh i hate getting worked up what can i do im reciveing counciling btw.
i know im fine i get used to it and bam a new pain will set me off cos i had a pain in my back i thought im dieing cos i read on here that some1s husband had a heart attack and it started in there back,
half way home i think to myself wait did laura (my girlfriend) say she found a knot in my back a week ago then i thought you ideot sigh i hate getting worked up what can i do im reciveing counciling btw.