.Poppy.
15-04-16, 01:44
Honestly, I've been doing pretty good HA wise, recently. I think the meds are starting to help, at least a little bit. My main anxieties have been pretty much about the same things, aren't all health related, and I don't obsess quite as much as I used to.
Then, this.
Basically, I have a visual trail. It does NOT appear when I am active concentrating on the object (so, if I focus on my hand and move it, I can't see a trail). Instead, when I don't focus on the object I see a light trail following. More so when there is a contrast (my white arm against a black stovetop, for instance).
I've had this for some time now. I think it started about 4 or 5 years ago actually (!!). I worried about it at the time, but as I was coming out of my first serious round of HA I didn't worry about it as much as I could have and just kind of lived with it. I swear I made a post on here about it but can't find it so maybe not.
I googled (UGH!) and have found all kinds of things, so nothing to specifically fear but as always, just the idea of: BAD. Some say it could be long-term lyme disease (a personal fear of mine). MS came up but I'm not really worried about that. Someone else posted that it could be reaction to antidepressents...probably not as it happened long before I started my meds but it seems to happen more frequently - not sure if that's a coincidence or not.
I know I'm not supposed to seek reassurance and I'm going to go through tomorrow and try some of the CBT exercises. I'm getting better at some of them, but it's still a lot of work - a lot of it seems to revolve around finding the worst case scenario and deciding how likely it is and how you'd cope; I'm still at the point where I want to curl up and just say "I don't know how likely it is, I don't know if I can cope....". But I'm getting closer to sitting upright...:winks:
Then, this.
Basically, I have a visual trail. It does NOT appear when I am active concentrating on the object (so, if I focus on my hand and move it, I can't see a trail). Instead, when I don't focus on the object I see a light trail following. More so when there is a contrast (my white arm against a black stovetop, for instance).
I've had this for some time now. I think it started about 4 or 5 years ago actually (!!). I worried about it at the time, but as I was coming out of my first serious round of HA I didn't worry about it as much as I could have and just kind of lived with it. I swear I made a post on here about it but can't find it so maybe not.
I googled (UGH!) and have found all kinds of things, so nothing to specifically fear but as always, just the idea of: BAD. Some say it could be long-term lyme disease (a personal fear of mine). MS came up but I'm not really worried about that. Someone else posted that it could be reaction to antidepressents...probably not as it happened long before I started my meds but it seems to happen more frequently - not sure if that's a coincidence or not.
I know I'm not supposed to seek reassurance and I'm going to go through tomorrow and try some of the CBT exercises. I'm getting better at some of them, but it's still a lot of work - a lot of it seems to revolve around finding the worst case scenario and deciding how likely it is and how you'd cope; I'm still at the point where I want to curl up and just say "I don't know how likely it is, I don't know if I can cope....". But I'm getting closer to sitting upright...:winks: