Madgirl12
15-04-16, 23:00
Hi everyone,
My long distance boyfriend and I have been discussing marriage :)
I'm not sure about anyone else but I have *never* longed for a big wedding, lots of attention and fuss etc. Even as a child, the thought of lots of eyes on me, walking down the aisle made me very nervous. My bf and I are both introverts, have anxiety/depression and he has mild aspergers. He finds some social situations difficult, but is ok in small groups.
Ideally, we'd elope. However, my mother and other family members/friends would never let me get away with that. People have expectations.
I think one of my primary concerns is just that, people's expectations. If I could just sign a piece of paper and be married to him tomorrow I'd happily do so. I strongly believe a marriage is more important than a wedding.
I remember after my best friend got married, we were talking about the wedding and I remarked that I would hate to have to hang around getting thousands of photos taken, posing constantly etc. I said I'd hate a big wedding. She said, "Oh don't be silly, you'd love it!"
Um, no, I wouldn't. It would sent me into a sweaty, anxious, headachey mess. But if/when my bf and I get married, at the minimum there will be a small ceremony, and I guess, lunch or something for everyone. No discos, no speeches, no bridesmaids or anything. It would have to be cheap too, but hopefully a pleasant experience, but how do I go about this? My brother is getting married later this year, and I think he's pretty sick of all the drama and expense already.
My bf was married once before. I don't know much about their wedding, but I don't think it was a big, fancy event. They broke up amicably and remain friends so he doesn't have too many reservations about marrying me (hopefully!)
Only 1 person knows about this. She wants to come to the wedding too. I told her it won't be a "wedding" as such, just a simple ceremony and some food afterwards. I don't want huge expense and fuss. I'd like a nice dress (probably not traditional wedding dress), a nice wedding ring (don't think I'll have an engagement ring but not bothered) and hopefully a few nice photos to remind me of the day - but doubt we'd bother with a professional photographer. It would be a registry office ceremony I think. I think the nicest weddings are the ones where things are kept simple, not the couple spending thousands of pounds on one day, and trying to set the bar even higher.
Another worry is who to invite? I keep thinking about that, and worrying.
I would want to keep it *just* close family and a few friends. But then I think about the friend who has invited me to her wedding this year (I can't afford to go), or the nice friend of a friend whose wedding I went to years ago. Various friends/friends sisters whose wedding I attended. And distant relatives who are going to my brother's wedding - but I wouldn't have them at mine because I barely know them. And oh, what about their partners? My best friend's husband, other friend's boyfriends? If I invite one I have to invite them all. Some people might take offense as I know their partners reasonably well. Should I care about these things? I can feel myself mentally going in knots thinking about all this. And eloping sounds the best option because it would just be the two of us (and a couple of witnesses) but my mother would never forgive me. So this is the other option - but I worry it will get out of control and I'll hate the experience.
Anyway, has anyone else got married to their partner and had huge fears about the day? How did you go about alleviating these fears and enjoying your special day? Did you have a big wedding, or a small simple one?
Thanks!
My long distance boyfriend and I have been discussing marriage :)
I'm not sure about anyone else but I have *never* longed for a big wedding, lots of attention and fuss etc. Even as a child, the thought of lots of eyes on me, walking down the aisle made me very nervous. My bf and I are both introverts, have anxiety/depression and he has mild aspergers. He finds some social situations difficult, but is ok in small groups.
Ideally, we'd elope. However, my mother and other family members/friends would never let me get away with that. People have expectations.
I think one of my primary concerns is just that, people's expectations. If I could just sign a piece of paper and be married to him tomorrow I'd happily do so. I strongly believe a marriage is more important than a wedding.
I remember after my best friend got married, we were talking about the wedding and I remarked that I would hate to have to hang around getting thousands of photos taken, posing constantly etc. I said I'd hate a big wedding. She said, "Oh don't be silly, you'd love it!"
Um, no, I wouldn't. It would sent me into a sweaty, anxious, headachey mess. But if/when my bf and I get married, at the minimum there will be a small ceremony, and I guess, lunch or something for everyone. No discos, no speeches, no bridesmaids or anything. It would have to be cheap too, but hopefully a pleasant experience, but how do I go about this? My brother is getting married later this year, and I think he's pretty sick of all the drama and expense already.
My bf was married once before. I don't know much about their wedding, but I don't think it was a big, fancy event. They broke up amicably and remain friends so he doesn't have too many reservations about marrying me (hopefully!)
Only 1 person knows about this. She wants to come to the wedding too. I told her it won't be a "wedding" as such, just a simple ceremony and some food afterwards. I don't want huge expense and fuss. I'd like a nice dress (probably not traditional wedding dress), a nice wedding ring (don't think I'll have an engagement ring but not bothered) and hopefully a few nice photos to remind me of the day - but doubt we'd bother with a professional photographer. It would be a registry office ceremony I think. I think the nicest weddings are the ones where things are kept simple, not the couple spending thousands of pounds on one day, and trying to set the bar even higher.
Another worry is who to invite? I keep thinking about that, and worrying.
I would want to keep it *just* close family and a few friends. But then I think about the friend who has invited me to her wedding this year (I can't afford to go), or the nice friend of a friend whose wedding I went to years ago. Various friends/friends sisters whose wedding I attended. And distant relatives who are going to my brother's wedding - but I wouldn't have them at mine because I barely know them. And oh, what about their partners? My best friend's husband, other friend's boyfriends? If I invite one I have to invite them all. Some people might take offense as I know their partners reasonably well. Should I care about these things? I can feel myself mentally going in knots thinking about all this. And eloping sounds the best option because it would just be the two of us (and a couple of witnesses) but my mother would never forgive me. So this is the other option - but I worry it will get out of control and I'll hate the experience.
Anyway, has anyone else got married to their partner and had huge fears about the day? How did you go about alleviating these fears and enjoying your special day? Did you have a big wedding, or a small simple one?
Thanks!