snowflake293
18-04-16, 17:39
Hi all
I found out someone I know today has cancer and it has set me off. I feel awful cause they were so upset and all I want to do is support them, not start thinking about myself but I can't help it.
As soon as they said the words my heart sank and I felt sad for them, but I also felt panicked and overwhelmed and then worried. Have been on edge all day since I found out (I have not shown any of it in front of this person of course, I am being strong in front of them cause that is what they need)
I am so scared of 'the unknown' and I keep playing situations out in my head over, and over again where I imagine someone I love being diagnosed, or me being diagnosed. Deep down, I even worry I have cancer already!
How do others cope with this? Does anyone else feel totally afraid of cancer and find themselves thinking about it all the time? I guess I worry about 'who's next' and cause of this my heart sinks every time a family member calls me and every time I have to, or they have to go for tests etc... personally I will do everything to avoid blood tests and scans cause I am petrified it will show something up!
Just want to think rationally, been on edge like this is exhausting.
I found out someone I know today has cancer and it has set me off. I feel awful cause they were so upset and all I want to do is support them, not start thinking about myself but I can't help it.
As soon as they said the words my heart sank and I felt sad for them, but I also felt panicked and overwhelmed and then worried. Have been on edge all day since I found out (I have not shown any of it in front of this person of course, I am being strong in front of them cause that is what they need)
I am so scared of 'the unknown' and I keep playing situations out in my head over, and over again where I imagine someone I love being diagnosed, or me being diagnosed. Deep down, I even worry I have cancer already!
How do others cope with this? Does anyone else feel totally afraid of cancer and find themselves thinking about it all the time? I guess I worry about 'who's next' and cause of this my heart sinks every time a family member calls me and every time I have to, or they have to go for tests etc... personally I will do everything to avoid blood tests and scans cause I am petrified it will show something up!
Just want to think rationally, been on edge like this is exhausting.